I am dumb...

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Someone on Facebook said I'm the cleverest person they know. If that is true, then the world is in a very sad and dire state.

I don't even know basic physics. I can't fix an electronic device. If the world ends, and I am one of the few survivors of the apocalypse, I would contribute nothing to the rebuilding of earth! I can't even build a simple light bulb, build a battery, or bake a brick. I wouldn't even be able to create bronze tools. Bronze-age (Bronze culture) man is better than I am.

Imagine that 5000 thousand years ago, people could build pyramids and other wonders of the world that we would struggle to recreate now. I think that humans have indeed regressed, not evolved. It's a good thing that we have stored our knowledge, gathered over the centuries. If not for writing, humans would be nothing. Writing is the most important tool, to pass down and distribute knowledge.

As a biotechnologist, perhaps I can "genetically engineer bacteria". But without the micropipettes, enzymes, reagents, it would be impossible to do anything. Without online journals, it is also impossible. Without knowledge passed on from others, impossible. What actually do I remember? Only the basic theories. I don't even know the basic structure of glucose. I would struggle to draw DNA. I forgot most of my chemistry. It's embarassing. So if I am one of the few survivors of an apocalypse, without my computer, internet, my contribution to rebuild humanity would be close to nothing.

So in the next few years, I hope that I will learn more things, basic knowledge, become an all rounder and learn more things which are actually useful and important.

The End...

Unfortunately, Eli Stone, the best tv series will not be renewed for another season.

Anyway, it's one of the best tv series of late, and definitely one of the most touching (if not the most) drama I've ever watched. Terrific acting, and the best chemistry I've seen between Eli/Maggie.

Why can't Eli and Maggie be together? God's will? Writer's plot? That's sad. Actually I like Grace too, so who know's how it would turn out eventually. And fantastic acting by Katie Holmes, very memorable guest appearance (Sigourney Weaver too).

Taylor/Matt Dowd plot was great, even Maggie/New Boyfriend scenes were great. Eli/Nate relationship was good too...actually the whole show is superb in my opinion.

Good character development,especially Taylor, Maggie, Matt.




Anyway, as a season ender, it was a great ending. As a series ending, a great ending too. No loose tails, happy ending. Now we only have to wonder what happens to Eli/Maggie/Grace.

The End.

It's been awhile

It's been awhile since....

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...I read scientific journals or prepared for my master's project(6 days)
...I celebrated my birthday with my friends (6 days)
...I updated this blog (11 days)
...I last watched a movie at the cinema (12 days)
...I went swimming (almost 2 weeks)
...I pulled weights and did sit-ups(1 month?)
...I had fun playing Mafia wars, Farmville, Kingdom Wars, Happy Aquarium etc (1 month)
...I put on 2kg and stopped putting on more weight (2 months)
...I cooked dinner/lunch/nyonya food (2-3 months?)
...I studied Chinese (2-3 months?)
...I last logged on to Marcoland, my favourite online game which died (5-6 months?)
...I last played DOTA (7-8 months)
...I played a new computer game (1-2 years?)
...I bought a new fantasy fiction book which I've enjoyed (>2 years)
...I last "chiak eee" (7 years?)

and I'm proud to say...
...I last read the bible (2 days)
...I last went to church (4 days)
...I last had communion (8 days)
...I last bathed (5 hours)

...and today is Dec 21 2009, so we have exactly 3 years more to live. 3 years is a long time, and you can accomplish many things in 3 years. The last 3 years have been the best 3 years of my life. Making friends, new experiences, coming out of my comfort zone a little, maturing, and doing things out of the ordinary. And I thank the Lord, my family, friends, and relatives.

Forgive me

1. Forgive me Lord, for I have sinned.

2. Please forgive my sins as I forgive those who sin against me.




I always forgive, but at the same time, life is a hard teacher. Hence, it is hard to forget. Living turns us hard. We become wary of others. Learn not to trust so easily, learn not to give so easily, learn not to love so easily. That is one of the failings of growing up. I long to live in a perfect world, can we make this world a perfect place?

Perhaps the answer is a new begining? Or would history just repeat itself? Only under perfect conditions with no limiting factors could perfection be obtained.

In the begining, God created a perfect world. But he made man, and man unfortunately was not perfect. If not for man, created in His image, the world would be a perfect place! So why did God create man who is imperfect and prone to make errors? Did God make a mistake? Is God imperfect? (Please forgive me Lord for thinking this.) What is God's true purpose in creating imperfect beings?

Why create humans who are not perfect? Why not create perfect humans right from the begining, to live in the perfect world? Then everything would be perfect.

But what is perfection actually? To be continued.

You'd better run

Lest I corrupt you. you have been warned.

It sux.

It sux that the most important thing I look forward to these few days is playing Castle Age. What a life I have. But don't get me wrong, I do feel rather happy...just content with my slothish lifestyle. If I had a conscience, I should be feeling REALLY bad wasting my time, but I think my conscience has slowly melted away...leaving me...empty.

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That pretty much sucks.

Prelude to the End

Prelude to the End.

Today is the 30th of November 2009. Tomorrow is the 1st of December. If the world were to end in December 2012, we would have 3 years left to live. It wouldn’t be that bad. Finally an end to all the suffering going on in this world.

Why does man have to suffer? All the suffering happening EVERYWHERE in the world. Unhappiness. Physical pain. Hunger. Illness. Relationship troubles. Break-ups. Falling in love with someone who can’t return your love. Cheating on your wife. Lying to your best friend. Having to do something you don’t like to do. Working 8-5, burned out after work. Getting fired. Not knowing what to do. Even being bored out of your mind is suffering. I hate the phrase “No pain no gain.” WHY MUST THERE BE PAIN!!! Something is wrong... WHY Should there be pain?

Why do some people have to starve? Yet most of us are unsatisfied with the food we are blessed to eat. We always want to eat nicer food. Sushi King, Seafood, Suckling Pig, Peking Duck, Nasi Ayam Penyet. I guess once in a while if we can afford it, we feel we “deserve” a treat. Anyway, life is so unfair. They have nothing to eat, while we are unsatisfied with what we have to eat. I always complain about the food even when I KNOW I shouldn’t complain. WHY does this happen??

Worse still. Some people work so hard to earn a living, just to survive. To carve out their basic existence. And yet some of us just “enjoy” playing meaningless Facebook games. Chatting on MSN for hours (Not me). Pointless activities if you actually think about it. Seems like a worthless existence. Won’t matter much if the end of the world really came. Blogging. Haha.

I think one of the purposes of man on earth is to be happy, to enjoy his existence, doing good things. We don’t need all the technology and advancement we have now to be happy. I feel it would be nice to live in a period long gone, in a farming community, self supporting, everybody simple, yet happy. In a utopia where evil didn’t exist. I think humans are born with a clean slate and it is our life experiences that turns us evil. I don’t think humans are born the “selfish creatures” that we are now. Maybe we need to have a restart, a clean slate.

In conclusion, I think that not existing may be better than existing in a world full of suffering. But I’m still young, my thoughts change often. Who knows...

I originally wanted to blog about now is December, the END of my holidays. Time to get off my ass. SERIOUSLY. But 2012 is pretty good too. Haha. Anyway, I will try my best to make life more meaningful, and try to ease the suffering of others as much as possible. I hope I can do it! Be a better person….TIME TO REPENT. Be a better Christian! Or Buddhist if you are one…Or Muslim…Jewish. Taoist. Hindu. Scientologist?

Another week

Another week goes by. I am still at home. Doing nothing in particular. Wasting time, enjoying my slothful existence. Time passes so fast during the holidays, week after week. Over just like that. The slothful existence is a disease, making me go back to my old habits, lazy, anti-social, cowardly, anything else terrible.

I still don't know what to do with my future, but my free time is coming to an end. End of November is the new deadline, postponed from end of October. Now I have to get off my ass and do something useful. Almost all my friends are now working, studying, or at least doing something useful. Haha, it's funny because people think that the 4.0 should do greater things than what I am doing. I'm so lazy I haven't updated my blog in a long while. Sorry...!!

Movies I have watched...

Well, I should record this down too!

Well, it started with Bolt and Dark Knight last year/last last year?. Then I went to the cinema much more often after that...

Dark Knight 9/10 <-- I think it was really good?
Pandorum 9/10 <--It was very good! But scary like shit!!!
Bolt 8.5/10 <-- Made me like watching movies in cinema. Quite touching…
Angels and Demons 8.5/10 <-- Quite good!!
Star Trek 8.5/10 <-- Quite good, but I couldn't enjoy the full experience bcoz badly had to pee.
GI Joe: The rise of Cobra 8.5/10 <--I like the bad guys...hahaa
Percy Jackson & The Olympians:The lightning Thief 8.5 <--One of the better movies to be released. Fun to watch throughout the show,great cast with great acting especially the main three.
Ice Age 3 8.5/10 <-- I like the sabertooth squirrel
Prince of Persia: The Sands of Time 8.25/10 <-- The lame attempts at humour and Dastons mumbling kinda reduced the score of this otherwise good movie. Didn't like some of the dialogue lines between Daston and Tamina as well....but good storyline, fight scenes, nice scenery, great cast and good happy ending.
2012 8.25/10 <-- Plot had too much coincidence...and really unbelievable, but otherwise entertaining and fun to watch!
The Book of Eli 8.25 <- Nothing much really stands out, but overall quite a good solid movie that is entertaining and has a different feel.
Inception 8.25 <- Nice concept, fast paced and good to watch, but could have been improved. Lacking something....
Invictus 8.25 <- The starting was dull (focusing more on Nelson Mandela), but towards the end, the movie really picked up (focusing more on the Rugby matches and Matt Damon). There were several great scenes in the movie such as the rugby match in the rain, and was surprised by Matt Damon's great acting towards the end of the movie. Really interesting how sports can unite a nation. What's amazing is this is based on a true story...and how remarkable the likeness between Nelson Mandela and Morgan Freeman. Oh...and it reminded me of District 9 due to the South Africa setting.
Avatar in 3D 8.25 <-- Entertaining, fun to watch, and GREAT graphics, but otherwise lousy (terrible) plot, and not that great a cast (except sigourney weaver). Even less suspense than 2012...remake of Pocahantas with an expensive budget.
Robin Hood 8.25 <-- Everything was so smooth and I have no complaints at all. But this movie is not very memorable. Entertaining and well made, but nothing really stood out except Prince John and his French Queen.
Terminator Salvation 8.25/10 <--I didn't follow the terminator series but still liked this
Daybreakers 8.25/10 <--Quite good to watch with several memorable scenes, was surprised by the brutal ending. Great concept, but a little bit "unbelievable" how the blood supply dwindles so fast in just a few days when the epidemic has been going on for 10 years!
G-Force 8/10 <--The mice were tooo cute, but the mole was kinda disgusting to see.
Surrogates 8/10 <-- Don't really like the too simple plot, but otherwise great concept.
Gamer 8/10 <--Love the concept of "society" but otherwise nothing amazing
I love you, Beth Cooper 8/10 <-- Not bad for a chick flick. Kinda meaningful
Wall Street Money Never Sleeps 8/10 <-- I don't really enjoy non-action movies, but this was okay. Good cast and nice twist.
District 9 8/10 <-- This show is strange.
Madagascar 3 8/10 <-- Okay okay lar
Astroboy 7.75 <-- Fun to watch, otherwise nothing much
Skyline- 7.5/10 - The end was good, nice CGI
Up 7.5/10 <-- Cast was too small, not interesting enough
Alvin & The Chipmunks: The Squeakuel 7.5 <--entertaining but nothing else
Money is not enough 2 7.5/10 <-- First time watching hockien movie in cinema
Monsters Vs. Aliens 7.5/10 <-- Nothing to shout about
Aliens in the Attic 7.5/10 <-- Not bad
Transformers: revenge of the fallen 7/10 <--The loud-mouth mother really annoyed me.
The final Destination 7/10 <--Kinda sux
Legion 6.5<--It was really disappointing mainly because of the action scenes. The plot kinda sucked when they could have done so much more. The concept of God losing hope for humanity is a great concept. The cast is rather good too...but the shooting/editing making of the film really brought everything down. Hoping for a remake.
Clash of the Titans 6/10 <-- Sam Worthington sucks. Action scenes and plot sucked. Didn't enjoy this at all, not even fun to watch.
Blood: The last Vampire 5/10 <--This sucks, really, and not because she's a vampire

2011
I am number four -8.5/10 -Really enjoyed this, fun and nice fight scenes
Thor- 8/10-Enjoyed this
Transformers: Dark of the moon- 8.25-Enjoyed this, some touching moments like the moon landing.
Captain America: The first Avenger  -8.75-Really enjoyed this, some very touching moments.
Rise of the planet of the Apes-8.5- Really enjoyed this
Conan the Barbarian-8/10- I enjoyed this despite the bad-hype going around.

2012
Man on A Ledge 7.5/10 -entertaining, but extremely unrealistic plot
The Hunger Games 8.5/10 - fun to watch, nice costumes!
Snow White and the Huntsman 8/10- Fun to watch, although I finally understand why some people hate Kristen Stewart. And yes, Charlize Theron's evil queen was great.

Movies I watched on DVD: (Lower score because not watched in cinema)

The Other Boleyn Girl<--8 I liked this, especially Natalie Portman. Natalie Portman outshines Scarlett Johannson...
Elizabeth: The Golden Age <--7.5 Nothing that spectacular but a bit disappointed with the portrayal of Philip II. He was a great man, but portrayed as a weak lunatic.
The Curious case of benjamin button <--7.5 A bit too long, a bit unrealistic but rather good...Impressed by Queenie. Impressed by the elderly Benjamin (old looking, young age). Impressed by Tilda Swinton. Didn't really like Cate Blanchett in this movie...
Hurt Locker <--8 Impressed by the main actor and his relationship with Beckham and Eldridge. Impressed by Beckham! Not much suspence as it's quite predictable which bombs would blow (I knew the poor Doc would die) and which wouldn't, but otherwise still fun to watch. Low visual quality towards the end spoiled the movie a bit. Caution: Bad language in this film is addictive. Makes me want to use the F word...haha.
Cirque du Freak: The Vampire's Assistant 5 <--worst movie to date? Monkey girl is the only thing slightly good about this movie.
The Road 6.5 <--Too slow and boring.

Great movies (Score >9) I watched on TV :
Kingdom of Heaven
Alexander
Underworld 2
The Day After Tomorrow

Movies I want to watch:


Movies I wanted to watch but missed:
1. Twilight
2. Orphan
3. I love you, man
4. Street Fighter: The legend of Chun Li
5. Whiteout <- Bad reviews deterred me
6. New Moon <-I guess bcoz I didn't watch twilight, I didn't want to watch the sequel before the prequel.
7. A Christmas Carol <- Didn't look that good
8. Imaginarium of Dr Parnasus
9. Solomon Kane
10. Shutter Island
11. Sorcerer's Apprentice
12. The last airbender
13.

Great TV series

I want to list them out, so that I can remember them in the future!

5-6: Red
7-8: Green
9-10: Blue

Popular: I REALLY liked this. The cliffhanger ending was terrible since the show was not continued : (9/10)
Now and Again: Great show on TV2, BAD sucky ending as the show was cancelled. (7.9/10)
Blood Ties: Great show, quite recent but not renewed... :( (7.9/10)
Missing: I remember liking it, but didn't watch it *that* regularly. (6/10)
Farscape: No proper ending. Shit. It sux that (9/10)
Babylon 5: The best Sci Fi EVER. (9.8/10)
Mythquest: Another GREAT TV2 show. (8.5/10)
Dark Knight: About Ivanhoe, this series was the best! (9/10)
Xena: GREAT show. (8.99/10)
Hercules: Not quite as great as Xena, but still great. (8.0/10)
Young Hercules: Kinda good. (7.5/10)
Stargate SG1: The second best Sci Fi. Love the mythology aspect. Unfortunately local tv stations never showed the later seasons. (9/10)
Charmed: THE BEST? Idiot NTV7 never showed the later seasons. (9.9/10)
Merlin: Great! One of the better new shows. (8.5/10)
Smallville: I'm not a big fan, but nowadays, nothing better is on tv (7.9/10)
Eli Stone: Pretty good...! (8.0/10)
Ally McBeal: I used to love this show. (8.5/10)
Grey's anatomy: One of my most Favourite shows of all time. (9.9/10)
Dark Angel: Can barely remember it, but stared Jessica Alba! (5.5/10)
Cleopatra 2525: Wacky show...totally different from others. (6/10)
Gilmore Girls: !!! I like Paris most of all... (9.5/10)
Beastmaster: This was one of my favourite, especially Tao...and the sorceress!
(9/10)
Numbers: I enjoyed this!! (8/10)
Supernatural: BETTER than smallville! (8/10)
The 4400: GREAT, but wasn't shown on TV anymore :( (8.9/10)
Kyle XY: I only started watching it recently. Like Jessie and Andy. (8/10)
Alias: My bro and mum liked this show. (7/10)
Felicity: I watched it when i was too bored. Tuesday's on TV2. Not DAT great though. (5.5/10)
Earth Final Conflict: I LOVED this, especially the song! (8.5/10)
Mutant X: I liked it, not THAT much though. (7.9/10)
First Wave: How could I forget! This is like the BEST. Together with Charmed and Grey's anatomy and survivor. (9.8/10)
Third Watch: Occassionally watched this, but not really a big fan. (6.9/10)
Tru Calling: Quite nice (6/10)
Relic Hunter: One of the best shows! (9/10)
Guinevere Jones: I did watch it, not *dat* great though. (5/10)
24: I hated this in the past, only started to watch it now (Season 7?) Hate Bauer but like agent Moss n Walker...Janice, Chloe n the rest...Pity Larry died. (5.5/10)

No Rating. I was too young to really remember these shows. But my fav is spellbinder.
Sliders: Great show, but I can barely remember it.
Oceangirl: Erm...GREAT!
Lois & Clark the new adventures of superman: My sis liked this. BETTER than smallville!
Robin Hood: I can barely remember this show. But i know it existed...
Spellbinder: GREAT!!! Can you remember Spellbinder Ashkah? I can... and those energy balls!
X-files: I liked this, but it was pretty scary most of the time.
Conan The Adventurer : I can vaguely remember this, but it was good.

Reality:
The Mole: This was GREAT! (9.5/10)
Manhunt: A show about people being hunted...haha. Not bad. (5.5/10)
Survivor: I wish it were still shown. Damn NTV7! This is the BEST reality tv series ever. (9.9/10)
The Amazing Race: Quite good, but can't compete with survivor. (8.5/10)
Hell's Kitchen: It was damn good hearing Gordon Ramsay curse. (8.0/10)
Ironchef: Good show. (8/10)
The Apprentice: This was good! Love the backstabbing and conflicts. (9.0/10)
She's Got The Look: Search for mature model...pretty good (8/10)
Shear Genius: Hairstyling Reality, pretty good (7.5/10)



Damn! I know I forgot so many of them, and that's why I'm writing this. Will try to recall more later. I will rank them too!


Here are some shows that are very famous which i didn't get to watch OR I didn't like.

Heroes
House
Lost
Scrubs
ER
The Practice
CSI (all 3 versions)

Katy Perry vs. Lady Gaga Part 2

The battle continues with both singers having new singles released on radio...

Katy Perry's "Waking up in Vegas" took a while for me to start liking, and even then it was just "good", nothing to shout about. On the other hand, Lady Gaga had "Disco Stick/Love Game" which I instantly liked. "I wanna take a ride on your disco stick" sounds really dirty. Haha. Well, I still prefer Katy who has a unique voice, good looks and an interesting background(Pastor's kid??). Lady Gaga on the other hand seems as artificial as the synthesized sounds in her songs. But "Love game" is really pretty good. Oh yeah, Lady Gaga also released a bunch of new songs that show her versatility...hmm. Oh well, I've gotta admit that for now, Lady Gaga=1 and Katy Perry=0. Hopefully it's just temporary.

Here's a vid if you're too free!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1zFOKRJFIqo

Sorry, only the link since it will cause my blog to slow down if I embed it.

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9 February 2012

Katy Perry vs. Lady Gaga Part 3!

The battle continues between these two super stars! Katy Perry seems to be leading this time, with a positive image (despite her recent divorce) and good music, where as Gaga seems to be more and more wacky, walking a fine line between creativity and plain madness. Music wise, Katy Perry has the epic hits ET, FIREWORK! and TGIF,and the one which I dont really like, "The one that got away". Lady Gaga responds with the trend breaking Born this Way, the marvellous Edge of Glory, the super catchy You and I, sung by her male alter ego, and the one which I don't really like, "Marry the night". Music wise, Gaga seems to be leading, but Katy is not far behind. Overall though, let's call it a draw. Gaga=1, Katy=1. :)

Mysteries of the Universe (To be Cont.)

Part 1: The Universe

I know the universe is REALLY huge, but my problem is, what is outside the universe? How can anything be endless? No matter how big he universe is, it must have an end! Try picturing the universe in your head. Maybe you picture the universe as a REALLY large box. But what is outside that box? Imagine the universe expanding in every direction, larger and larger, but yet, there MUST be an end to it. No matter how large the universe is, it will have a boundary. But what is beyond that boundary! Even if it is just empty space, vacuum, it is still something. But again, that vacuum/empty space can't go on forever! It will have another boundary again. I am incapable of imagining a universe which size is infinite...

I think that we are only able to picture something that is finite. Perhaps the human brain is unable to handle infinity. Perhaps our brains are too "fragile" and perhaps we cannot even begin to grasp the "real truth" which may be totally out of our mind's capacity to imagine.

What do you think?

Part 2: Time
This one is no less intriguing. We sometimes hear the phrase "At the begining of time". The "begining of time" could refer to the creation of the universe, or any other event, not necessarily marking the begining of the universe. Rather, I think it should refer to the first point of existence. The begining of time is when the first entity/being/world/universe first existed. Let's say it was the existence of vaccuum in space, before the creation of the universe. But what about BEFORE the vaccuum was there? Something must have existed before that vast vaccuum filled space. in that case, that "something's" existence should mark the begining of time. But yet, "something else" surely preceeded the "something". And it goes on. So was there really a begining? FOREVER seems like a more appropriate word. But how can something be forever (Which means it existed "since the begining of time"), if the "begining of time" doesn't even exist?

Okay, let's say, at the begining of time, time=0 or let's say 1 billion trillion years ago. So -1 would be before the begining of time or 1 billion trillion billion years MINUS 1 year. In that case, "1 billion trillion MINUS 1" should be the begining of time! I guess the begining of time doesn't exist...or my puny brain can't comprehend it. Prove me wrong will ya...

Long time no updates,

Well, if you're wandering (Wondering, i mean), I am still alive. I didn't die. Haha. I even graduated already!

Actually it has only been 4 months since my last post, but to me, it feels like a hell of a long time. So much has happened, and I can't even remember when I last updated my blog. I have graduated from university and all the labwork madness and emotional imbalance is gone. I'm having a nice long holiday at home before I continue my masters (Here I am looking for more labwork madness!!).

Anyway, it's really nice to be on a long holiday where you don't have ANY responsibilities. Basically, I can do anything that I want to do. How fun :)

But my life is still pretty boring...but i enjoy it that way. Anyway, going out this evening to visit two old school fiends for Hari Raya.

Will write more later. I promise. haha, I can promise what I want, but I can also break a promise if I want to. Don't base your life on another person's promise because that is just dumb.

Tata.

Meaningful song...

I like this line... "You know that I love you so, I love you enough to let you go"

Already Gone by Kelly Clarkson.
Lyrics from: http://www.elyrics.net/read/k/kelly-clarkson-lyrics/already-gone-lyrics.html

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

Even with our fists held high
It never would've worked out right
We were never meant for do or die

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hold you, now I can't stop

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you want to cry

Started with a perfect kiss then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so, I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone

Already gone, already gone, already gone
Already gone, already gone, already gone, yeah

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone

If my mind keeps thinking I've had enough, but my heart keeps telling me don't give up, what do i do?

This is a great song. Very inspirational.
Should I trust the heart? Or the brain? hmm...



The heart is stronger than you think
It's like it can go through anything
And even when you think it can't it finds a way to still push on, though

Sometimes you want to run away
Ain't got the patience for the pain
And if you don't believe it look into
your heart the beat goes on

I'm tellin' you that
Things get better
Through whatever
If you fall, dust it off, don't let up
Don't you know you can go be your own miracle
You need to know

CHORUS
If the mind keeps thinking you've had enough
But the heart keeps telling you don't give up
Who are we to be
questioning, wondering what is what
Don't give up
THROUGH IT ALL, JUST STAND UP!

It's like we all have better days
Problems getting all up in your face
Just because you go through it
Don't mean it got to take control, no
You ain't gotta find no hiding place
Because the heart can beat the hate
Don't wanna let your mind keep playin' you
And sayin' you can't go on

I'm tellin' you that
Things get better
Through whatever
If you fall
Dust if off, don't let up
Don't you know you
Can go
Be your own
Miracle
You need to know

CHORUS

You don't gotta be a prisoner in your mind
If you fall, dust it off
You can live your life

Yeah
Let your heart be your guide
Yeah yeah yeah
And you will know that you're good if you trust in the good
Everything will be alright, yeah
Light up the dark, if you follow your heart
And it will get better
Through whatever

CHORUS

You got it in you, find it within
You got it in now, find it within now
You got it in you, find it within
You got it in now, find it within now
You got it in you, find it within
You got it in now, find it within now
Find it within you, find it within
THROUGH IT ALL, JUST STAND UP!!

Favourite songs...

I have a little free time today...Let me list down some of my favourite songs so i don't ever forget the songs that i have liked.

In no particular order:

Fall to pieces (Avril)
Complicated (Avril)
Girlfriend (Avril)
Skaterboy (Avril)
Stand up (Various artists)
Take a bow (Rihanna)
Disturbia (Rihanna)
Unwritten (Natasha Bedingfield)
Love Like This(Natasha Bedingfield)
Pocket Full Or Sunshine(Natasha Bedingfield)
If you're not the one (Daniel Bedingfield)
I'm gonna get through this(Daniel Bedingfield)
I don't want you back(Eamon)
Umbrella (Marie Digby)
Say it again (Marie digby)
Bubbly (Colbie)
Realise (Colbie)
Love story (Taylor Swift)
Fifteen (Taylor swift)
Teardrops on my guitar (Taylor swift)
Torn (Natalie Imburglia)
Promiscuos (Nelly Furtado)
I'm like a bird (Nelly Furtado)
Maneater (Nelly Furtado)
Scream (Timbaland and others)
The Way I are (Timbaland and others)
Apologize (One Republic)
Stop and Stare (One Republic)
Breakaway(Kelly Clarkson)
A moment like this (Kelly Clarkson)
Because of you(Kelly Clarkson)
Behind these hazel eyes(Kelly Clarkson)
Sober(Kelly Clarkson)
Everywhere (Michelle Branch)
Crazy in Love (Beyonce)
If I were a boy (Beyonce)
Irreplacable (Beyonce)
Survivor (Destiny's child)
Stand up for love (Destiny's child)
With you (Chris brown)
The Remedy (Jason Mraz)
I'm Yours (Jason Mraz)
You and I both (Jason Mraz)
The geek in the pink (Jason Mraz)
Everything (Micheal Buble)
Home (Westlife)
Something right (Westlife)
7 things I hate about (Miley Cyrus)
See you again (Miley Cyrus)
Geenie in a bottle (Christina)
Candyman (Christina)
Who knew(Pink)
Please Don't leave me (Pink)
For you i will (Teddy Geiger)
Collide (Howie Day)
She Says (Howie Day)
I will always love you (Whitney Houston)
Hey ya (Outkast)
Where is the love (Black eye peas)
Don't phunk with my heart (BEP)
Don't lie (BEP)
I got a feeling (BEP)
Big Girls don't cry(Fergie)
Glamorous (Fergie)
100 years (Five for fighting)
The riddle (five for fighting)
superman (five for fighting)
yellow (coldplay)
the scientist (coldplay)
Fix you (coldplay)
Viva La vida (coldplay)
Spotlight (jeniffer hudson)
If this isn't love (jeniffer hudson)
all american girl (carrie underwood)
before he cheats (carrie underwood)
Some hearts (carrie underwood)
Angels (Jessica simpson)
take my breath away (jessica simpson)
A little too not over you (Archuleta)
Crush (Archuleta)
Invisible (clay aiken)
escape (enrique iglesias)
Thinking of you (katy perry)
hot n cold (kate perry)
piece of me (Britney spears)
Sometimes (Britney spears)
whenever wherever (shakira)
That's what you get (paramore)
Baby love (Nicole Scherzinger)
T-Shirt (Shontelle)
Tattoo (Jordin Sparks)
One step at a time (jordin sparks)
No air (Jordin Sparks, Chris Brown)
How do you sleep (Jesse McCartney)
I'm leavin (Jesse McCartney)
Bleeding love (Leona lewis)
Better in time (leona lewis)
Break even (The Script)
The man who can't be moved (The script)
How to save a life (the fray)
This i promise you (N'Sync)
Summertime (Newkids on the block)
Truly Madly Deeply(Savage Garden)
To the moon and Back(Savage Garden)
Crash n Burn(Savage Garden)
I knew I loved you(Savage Garden)
Big yellow taxi (Counting crows)
1000 miles (vanessa carlton)
Thank you (dido)
white flag (dido)
sing (travis)
When you say nothing at all (Ronan keating)
follow me (uncle cracker)
Mr. Brightside (The killers)
Human (The killers)
I'm not missing you (stacie orrico)
stuck (stacie orrico)
more to life (stacie orrico)
murder on the dance floor (sophie ellis baxter)
say what you want (Texas)
About you now (sugarbabes)
The tide is high (atomic kitten)
I never had a dream come true (S club 7)
What's going on (Lana wolf)
Fastcars (Tracy Chapman)
Fire (??)
I'll be missing you (Puff Daddy n Faith Evans)
Dangerous (Roxette)
She's got the look (Roxette)
Bottle it up (Sarah Barailles)
Love Song (Sarah Barailles)
I wanna be with you (Mandy Moore)
4ever (The Veronicas)
When it falls apart (The veronicas)

I know you want me (Pitbull)
Knocks you down (Kerry Hilson, Neyo, Kanye West)
Falling for you (Colbie Caillat)
Party in the USA (Miley Cyrus)
Tick Tock(Kesha)
21 Guns (Greenday)
All the right things (One Republic)
I see you (Leona Lewis)
Sweet Dreams (Beyonce)
Paparazzi (Lady Gaga)
Body Language (Jesse McCartney)
Avalanche (Marie Digby)
These Hard Times (Matchbox twenty)
According to you (Orianthi)
Two is better than one (Boys Like Girls/Taylor Swift)
Come clean (Hillary Duff)
Baby When You're Gone (Bryan Adams + Melanie C.)
Follow You Down (Gin BLossoms)
Breakfast at Tiffany's (Deep blue something)
Obsession (Frankie J. feat. Baby Bash)
Happy Ending (Mika)
Landslide (Dixie Chicks)
Buses and Trains (Bachelor Girl)
How do you do (Roxette)
Alice (Avril Lavigne)
Heaven (DJ Sammy)
Sweetest Girl (Wyclef Jean, Naiia)
Scar (Allison Iraheta)
Baby (Justin Bieber)
Gypsy (Shakira)
Waka Waka (Shakira)
Dance with My Father (Luther Vandross)
The Only Exception (Paramore)
Kissin You (Mirana Cosgrove)
Eenie Meenie (Justin Bieber, Sean Kingston)
Waiting for the end (Linkin Park)
2012 (Jay Sean)
Pyramid (Charice)
Love the way you lie (Eminem, Rihanna)
california gurls (Katy perry)
Teenage dreams (katy perry)
As we enter (Nas & Damian)
Airplanes (Bruno Mars)
Fight for this love (cheryl cole)
Do you remember(jay sean, sean paul, lil jon)

These are the songs as the top of my mind...I CAN'T BELIEVE that i actually forgot all the rest and even had trouble recalling most of these songs....such bad memory :(

I just wanna sit and stare at you.

I like this song... I always play this song when I'm alone at lab. :)

Fall to Pieces Lyrics
Artist(Band):Avril Lavigne

I looked away
then I look back at you,
You tryed' to say
the things that you can't undo,
If I had my way
I'd never get over you,
Today's the day
I pray that we make it through.

Make it through the fall,
Make it through it all.

And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just wanna sit and stare at you.
I don't wanna talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just wanna cry in front of you.
I don't wanna talk about it
'Cause I'm in love with you.

You're the only one
I'd be with till the end.
When I come undone
you bring me back again.
Back under the stars,
Back into your arms.

And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just wanna sit and stare at you.
I don't wanna talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just wanna cry in front of you.
I don't wanna talk about it
'Cause I'm in love with you.

Wanna know who you are,
Wanna know where to start,
I wanna know what this means.

Wanna know how you feel,
Wanna know what is real.
I wanna know everything Everything!

I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just wanna sit and stare at you.
I don't wanna talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just wanna cry in front of you.
I don't wanna talk about it.

And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just wanna sit and stare at you.
I don't wanna talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just wanna cry in front of you.
and I don't wanna talk about it
'Cause I'm in love with you.
I'm in love with you,
'Cause I'm in love with you.
I'm in love with you,
I'm in love with you.

www.sing365.com/music/lyric.nsf/Fall-to-Pieces-lyrics-Avril-Lavigne/FB0494D7F859528748256E8B00073F75

Music and me...

Today I studied music. All the notes (called taugeh by some) are giving me a feeling of "disorientation" or "blur" or "mind too active". Haha. Maybe it's because of staring at the pc too long...trying to play music on my mini-keyboard from music sheets on the pc-screen. At least now I can recognise the bass clef notes, although it still takes me some time. Treble clef is slightly easier since I have done it since primary school music class. Yeah, all cows eat grass and good boys do fine always :)

Yes, every good boy does fine!! And my FACe is so handsome :) Haha.

Anyway, I should sleep soon. Tomorrow is another 6.30am day... Goodnite.. bye bye. *kiss-kiss*

Fify for OIAM!

I support Fify for OIAM!! :D

I like the way she sings... especially the climax for tak tercapai akalmu in the top 11 show :)

She gives me "shivers" :)

Katy Perry Vs Lady Gaga

And the winner is Katy Perry!!

Both have new songs out... "Thinking of You" by Katy Perry which sounds a bit like it's sung by Alanis Morisette. Lady Gaga has a new song too, "Pokerface" which sounds quite good, but I only like the chorus.

Listening to Thinking of you now... and can't really write because I have to edit and cut down about 15 pages into 10!! Oh dear...haha/

Things to remember...

*Remember not to badmouth people*

because:

"Badmouthing is a form of basic, carnivorous, competitive behaviour. The Aspie mind has evolved beyond this basic competitiveness." said by Bario in AFF forum...

I find myself...

I found myself having nothing to do at home when I come back from lab today... I reached home before 4pm and I had nothing to do. Felt a bit tired, so climbed into bed; didn't really sleep but it was nice to just laze around anyway(Perhaps it was because i slept before 9pm the previous night).

I do have an unfinished assginment, but I'm rather lazy to do it... but the point is, I think I've been spending way too much time at lab that it has become my life now. Uni used to be my life, now it's lab.

Haven't done anything useful since i came back...haha. Better start my assignment now, have a meeting tomorrow at 9. Bye...goodnite :)

Another day...

Time passses too fast... it's already the 22nd of February!!

Bad news because that means I may not finish my Final Year Project on time...and also because we will all be graduating. I'd rather stay at this stage of life forever! (I think lah)

Fragility...

Feelings and mood are so easy to change... one moment i am happy, the next i am not... :(

anyway, it's 11:06 and I really need to sleep now! Going to have a full day at Uni 2moro...bye. Goodnite :D

David Archuleta vs Jesse McCartney...

Who do you prefer??

I think these two guys can be compared to each other. Why? Well, they are young singers... although Jesse McCartney has much more experience than David Archuleta...but anyway, the reason I am comparing them is because it seems their songs always are released around the same time.

First, it was Archuleta's Crush vs Jesse's I'm leaving and It's over.
Now, it's Archuleta's A little too not over you vs Jesse's How do you sleep.

I find that Jesse's songs are more catchy and I like them immediately, where as Archuleta's songs take time for me to like them... But I don't get fed-up of both their songs.

But in the end,I prefer Archuleta, because he has a nicer name :)

Why did I blog about this?? Well, there is a song just released that I am looking for, but can't find it because I don't even know the singer/song name :(

Oh no!!

I think I'll sleep at 11:55 pm lah... :(

Oh no!!

10:25pm and I still have lots to do... :(

I think I'll sleep at 11pm lah...

Doing assignment now...

Yes, that's what I'm doing. I will do it till 10pm or 1030 pm. Now is almost 9pm. Then I will sleep. That's because I need to wake up at 645 am tomorrow so that I can reach lab by 8am. Then I hope to run a gel (hopefully I'm the first to arrive). Then after that I'll be going out with my friend to buy some stuff. After that, at about 1pm I have a group meeting... meeting "Arnold" first. Then meeting the rest of the group at 2pm. Poor me. See the sacrifice I make as group leader?? Yeah... so anyway, if ur reading this crap, you're to free. Because I'm just wasting time. I haven't done assignments in such a long time and have totally lost touch... Havent gotten any really good journals or anything. Haven't cited anything. Haven't really done anything. Well, at least I'm the group leader...hehe... no one is gonna say... "So Nik, what did u do?"

Hehe... that's why it's so good to be the group leader. Hehe. :D

But don't get me wrong lah... I will do my work lah!!! Ish...

An early bird...

I always wake up late on Sundays (at least past 11pm), but this week, I woke up at about 9am and i feel totally refreshed! Well, to be fair, I was exhausted last night and slept early...about 10pm. So that's more than 8 hours of beauty sleep! The toothache I had last night was gone too when i woke up. I suspect it's a wisdom tooth trying to breakthrough.... it would be my second wisdom tooth.

Anyway, going to the lab after my mum comes home (she's using the car) and we have brunch. Today we have a cleaning session at lab, and I also need to subculture some bacteria.

This would be my first 7 day lab week...! Oh yeah, my supervisor came to lab yesterday (Saturday) and it was nice to have him visit.

Lastly, I think i'm focusing to much on my Final Year Project and neglecting some of my other duties such as assignments!! Oh dear............. need to pick up the slack!

I had to change the template..

Since my lolcats didn't display properly...the main blog content area width was too small... this template sux, but I'm too lazy to find a better one now...

Awww....

"I waited all night for you..."




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Haha...



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Make someone feel good about themselves...

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I have realised something... it's good to make someone feel good about themself! I mean... like asking someone to help you (of coz if they are capable) will make them feel that they are important or "worth something"... :) Hmm... actually, well... i like it when people make me feel good about myself... so thanks if you have made me feel good about myself. But hey, don't be a parasite... that's different.

8-5

Today I had another 8-5 day at Uni... hmm. 8-5's are really exhausting and for me it's worse; it's 7-6 since I have to drive to Uni. The extra 2 hours are in traffic jams, or napping in my car waiting for the lab to open at 8 (if i arrive early) or doing OT in the lab (If i have OverTime work).

On the other hand, I have "all the comforts of home"... so maybe those hostel students have more right to complain... hmm...well, I guess everything has it's own pro's and con's and most people (including me) like to complain.

Tomorrow is another 7-6 since I have music class in the morning, and I'll be making competent cells and doing transformation after that. There's gonna be an assignment for music class tomorrow and hopefully I can get 5/5 for it! :D

Listening to Fifteen now... i can listen to it over and over again...it's really quite nice :)

Fifteen...

I really like the song that Taylor Swift and Miley Cyrus sang at the Grammy's... heard it on the radio and then searched for it on youtube.. it's great :) Well, I like it more than the normal version by Taylor Swift alone... I really like Miley Cyrus' voice... and her speaking too :)

The song doesn't relate to me at all, but it's really nice anyway :)

Fifteen.... you can find it on youtube.

"Back then I swore I was gonna marry him someday but I realized some bigger dreams of mine. And Abigail gave everything she had to a boy that changed his mind, and we both cried."
-by Taylor Swift

10 pm

It's 10:09 pm...

I tried going to sleep at 840+pm or something like that, but it was too bloody hot! And my ass was itching.. I was very sleepy after coming back from lab, but slowly the sleepiness went away... and now I'm not that sleepy... not confident that I would fall asleep...

I think I have been dehydrated too... since after drinking several glasses of water, I only need to pee once!

Ok, I'll attempt to sleep again now...Goodnite

Ah am juz wandrin,

Does anyone read mah blog? Ah tink dat ah proberbly hav bowt 3 readuhs? Ah am quait cueriuz ah bout dis and ah tink dat i wanna start ah kounteh to kount how maneh vizits to mah blog ah gets.

It's a love story, baby just say yes

"It's a love story baby just say yes"

It's a lazy Saturday afternoon,
I'm in my room with my laptop on,
I write my blog,
To love song by taylor swift

Just reading blogs, seeing pictures, and facebook,
Not on MSN not invisible
can't say hello
missing you right now,

Wishing that i could be with you right now,
wherever you are whatever you're doing
I wanna do it too, whatever it is I don't care,
and I said,

"Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess,
it's a love story baby just say yes," - Love story by Taylor Swift

Tonight

Went for dinner at Grandaunt's house (Early Chap Goh Mei)...steamboat...traditional style with prawn balls, fish maw, big cabbage, meat rolls, meat balls, and...chicken stock soup! Quite nice... :)

Came back at 9 something...went online till now. Went facebook, but it's really so slow...I cant even finish adding everyone or see pictures. MSN also seems out? Cant send messages to some people...or maybe they didn't reply me...grrrr...grrr.

What to do now? I think i'm going to sort out some pictures to give my friends. Took many pics with coursemates a few days ago during the Biotech photoshoot.

Then what to do? Sleep kah? Hmm...i already slept 2 hours in the afternoon...dunno wor... (my friend always says dunno wor...haha...kena jangkit)

Anyway, the Jelapang assemblywoman is a traitor!! Maybe she will suicide in the end...too bad for her...Well hopefully she wasn't "forced" lah or else she is the victim :(

The irony

"Whoever gossips to you will gossip about you."

I hate people gossiping about me, but I like to hear gossip about others. Ironically, I then have trouble trusting that person, thinking they would gossip about me.

Disclaimer: If I trust you a lot, or you are very close to me, this doesn't apply to you! Instead of gossip, it's called "sharing". :)

Hmm...now that I think of it, some people are so kind... "sharing" with people that they are not that close with (i.e. me).

I am unbalanced...

"I need 8 hours of sleep a day."

I have been feeling really annoyed by someone lately, and I think that it's not even her fault...! I think I am just directing my negative energies....maybe i need an outlet.

Anyway, I am unbalanced; physically, mentally and emotionally. My biological clock has gone mad....maybe this is the cause. I have been having difficulty sleeping for the past few days and am quite tired, nearly lethargic. I've low appetite too :( I was so sleepy just now, but now I am wide awake. That's the worst thing! If only I could be fully awake earlier, and sleepy now...then I could go to sleep easily.

I do need to sleep soon...I've got to do PCR tomorrow by 9am.

Goodnight.

The wrong charity...

"Unless your heart is limitless, you have to have your heart at the right place."


I feel annoyed everytime there is an advertisement on tv asking us to donate to the Palestinians. What the? Why should we help the Palestinians when there are many of our own people suffering back here? What about the rural or poor kampung folk that have lost their houses and all their belongings in the recent floods? I have not seen a SINGLE advertisement on tv collecting donations for flood victims in Sarawak...which is totally unfair. Apparently, mangsa banjir di Johor atau Kelantan atau Terengganu (correct??) "lebih kasihan" because there were plenty of adverts asking for donations when Johor/kelantan/terengganu was flooded some time back. Anyway, poor S'wakian and Sabahan flood victims... no aid for them. Some people tell me that this is because of a political agenda...?

Sorry, back to the topic. I'm not saying that you can't help the Palestinians. I'm saying that you should help your own people first! There are plenty of people in Malaysia that need help to build better lives. The poor, the sick... there are plenty of us that need your help. So please don't donate to the Palestinians, please help your own people. :)


In conclusion, charity is great, but please have your priorities!

And just so you know, I donate to the poor very rarely :( Maybe I don't have a heart... but I'd prefer to donate if I earn my own money, not what my mum gives me. Hmm... maybe that's just an excuse for not donating..We'll see what happens when i earn my own money...

Coward!!

"Iraqi shoe thrower to seek Swiss asylum: lawyer"

Dare to do, dare to face the consequences!! Such a coward the "hero" is...

Just a mood...

My mood is as fickle as a candle flame,
it is temporary,
the feeling,
the happiness I've felt for the past many days,
it's gone now.

Don't get me wrong,
I'm not feeling down,
maybe just a little,
just a little,
but the point is,
it is just a mood,
which can change easily,
just like when the wind blows the flame,
it flickrs (flickers).

So my mood changes easily too...
hah,
that's what you call a moody person?
Or is everyone just the same?

Another muzik muzik post!

Haha...I saw people blogging about this, and now I want to blog about it too :)

This time around, I haven't been following muzik muzik... didn't even watch the normal episodes or the semi-finals (except youtube)... Used to be quite an addict to this show when I was younger...

So anyway, firstly, I'm glad that Faizal Tahir didn't win the grand prize! Hate (quite a strong word...ok, dislike) that guy... I would have been glad if anyone else won EXCEPT him. However, I have to admit that I quite like that Coba song of his... hmm. But i dislike him lah.... so don't want him to win :)

The Irama Malaysia (ethnik kreatif?) was very disappointing this year... Its always the worst category, but by far it was the worst this year... The winner is not something i would consider as ethnik kreatif... seems like just a normal pop song...with the erhu and fan dance to make it "chinese"... crap. Pop rock was ok...but I don't like pop-rock category usually... (except Destinasi Cinta last year)

Anyway, i didn't have any song in particular that I wanted to win... since most of them were eliminated in the semi-finals (Nubhan...Aizat's other song, Mila):(

But my favourite was Aizat's "Lagu Kita" or "Our song" by Taylor Swift :) But I knew the song was too simple to win lah... but it was nice anyway. It's really amazing too how he can diet until so thin... (i didnt know he was a fat guy last time)

Ziana Zain who i liked when i was young (not anymore) was quite disappointing...I thought hopefully she could redeem herself..but too bad. Ayu was disappointing too. My mum said Heliza's make up was overdone for someone wearing the tudung, but I said that's her style... (not that I know her lah) And Jaclyn Victor was great, and gemilang sounded quite different...!

In the end, it's disappointing that Faizal tahir got VOCAL terbaik since he clearly doesn't have any good vocals... and persembahan terbaik...oh crap! Just lucky he didn't win the grand prize :)

Okie...goodnite!

Such a cold night..

Tonight is such a cold night... I wanted to bathe, but I couldn't, cos it was too cold...! Anyway, I'm in bed now, with a warm blanket... and the laptop to warm me up :)

There's a really annoying fly buzzing around the room... it's been around since yesterday, really annoying...but i can't seem to find it (to kill it)... it's getting braver now... It even had the audacity to land on my laptop! Pity i couldn't whack it there and then.

Anyway, I was listening to songs on youtube just now, and now I'm chatting on MSN.

Tomorrow I've got class at 10... feel a bit reluctant to go! feel lazy now after a long break...

Dear You,

Dear You,

I don't really know how to tell you this, but I'll join the monastery. I think I realized it when I changed tennis shoes with George Bush and his wife and I saw you sit on Bill Clinton. I'm sure you're ashamed enough to understand how awful I've felt. I'm returning your ring to you, but I'll keep your suicide note as a memory. You should also know that I told in my confession today about our friendship.

Boo-hoo now, Me.

My excuse!!

My excuse for skipping lectures, not going to lab, not going online, not updating my blog, not smsing friends, is the FLOOD!!

I am proud...

I am proud that I managed a five day week of 8am-5pm! Haha... It sounds like I am a total workaholic...but anyway, I still feel it's an accomplishment.

Tomorrow will be the sixth day, but I probably won't work till 5pm.

Anyway, goodnight :)

I will try to sleep early tonight... within half an hour.

Shit!!

My PCR band is 2.5kb...I need 642bp!! Oh dear, disappointing :(

First times

First time PCR got band!!

Feeling tired...

Feeling like going to bed now, but it's only 8pm! I'm afraid if I *try* to go to sleep now, I may end up having imsomnia instead. But I'm tired now...hmm...I feel not soooo tired all of a sudden. Anyway, I need to repay my sleep-debt since last night i was quite restless and didn't get a good night's sleep. Maybe I'll *try* to sleep early today... yeah :)

Today's my second 8-5 day and it's only the SECOND day of uni... I think I like making myself seem busy??? Hmm... maybe. Haha.

And today was quite a mixed day....felt quite "down" in the late morning-noon, probably due to lack of sleep/energy.... but cheered up later after lunch...maybe it was lunch, maybe it was cause my friend came to lab (or maybe my PCR finally had a band-even though it was only a tiny tiny tiny band...haha. ) :)

Anyway, that's my day today. Goodnight :D


Listening to Love Story now...

Final Sem (2009)

Tomorrow I will officially start my final semester...

I've been lazy, taking many days off. Initially, I had planned to work all through the holidays, but I became too lazy. Human nature :)

So anyway, Year 2009 will be the most important year of my life. After I graduate, I will have to decide what to do next. That will be the most important decision!

Shall I continue my studies in UNIMAS? (72% chance)
Shall I goyang kaki for a year first? (15% chance)
Shall I continue my studies overseas or in semenanjung? (5% chance)
Shall I work in biotech related field? (5% chance)
Shall I work in unrelated field? (2% chance)
Shall I do something else? (1% chance)

I feel like continuing my studies because that is the easiest path. But somehow, now I feel a tug that I should do something else. Maybe start a restaurant? Join a cullinary school? Or even further my studies in semenanjung....? I feel like I want something different, yet I am unwilling to take the step. We'll see what happens when the time comes. :)

Easy to forget...

I find it's easy to forget sometimes. A few days ago, I was in a bad mood. Medium bad...like thinking "life is not worth living", "What's the point of life?", and so on. But no where near suicidal...or anything that seriouslah.

Anyway, my point is, when you're having a nice time, it's easy to forget the bad times. My friend asked me how I was recently, and I confidently replied good. I forgot that I was "not so good" just a few days ago. I forgot... It's easy to take for granted the nice times you're having... *Thinking about it now. Is this good or bad?*

Well, now I think it's a good thing. There's no point in thinking about the bad things.... maybe it's a human mechanism for coping. If we keep thinking about the bad, how can we enjoy life?

Anyway, I started this post with the intention of saying how easy it is to forget the bad, but I end it by saying it's good that we can forget and put aside the bad, and enjoy what we have in front of us :)