Friday, February 19, 2010

Another year

This year Chinese New Year wasn't as tiring as usual. That's because I started preparing for it early, starting to clear the house several days before New Year's Eve and completing it before New Year's Day. Maybe it was the cool weather as well; it rained almost everyday and so I didn't sweat at all while visiting...And I turned in be4 2:30 every night, and woke up late (because of the rain which hampered early visiting) so I was well rested. :)

The only thing that made mum and I extra busy was cooking the food to serve people (and washing the plates and glasses later). Overall, it wasn't too hectic, but I didn't have much time to go online at all. So i was truly in "CNY" mood.

Compared to last year, this year, many people didn't give me ang pow... don't know why. I still look young wat...and still not working.

Went out with two batches of friends this year. My old Sec School mates and my Uni friends. I'm surprised that I actually felt comfortable with my sec school mates; maybe I even talked more to them then I did during school time (since I was VERY quiet then). Visiting with friends this year however, felt quite tiring... and sometimes we would just sit there and wait for time to pass, enjoying the aircon...haha. Not to say that it was boring, but I guess the word "leisurely" describes it.

In all, it was a nice new year. Happy Chinese New Year everyone.

Friday, February 12, 2010

This is for you

This is for you Olee.

You got me distressed. Last night when I saw your post, I certainly thought you were meaning me. Not that I admit that I'm "smart", but I know that that's what you think of me. It's got me bothered because mostly it's true.

I've been avoiding MSN for some reasons. I used to be addicted to it, and spent lots of time chatting with friends. But now, I think I've changed. Playing facebook games in my thing. It's easier, with no responsibility required. You see, chatting sometimes is rather tedious. First, you gotta be online all the time. You can't just leave the computer and say "BRB" and go and do your thing, and come back later expecting your friend still to be there. Yeah, chatting is tedious. Then you get disturbed by people you don't really want to talk to and you have this really draggy conversation that you don't really want to have. Then there's other times that you want to talk to someone, but then you feel like they don't really want to talk to you. The opposite of what I just said. Yeah, probably it's just me that feels this way. Wayyy to complicated. I do feel guilty about "abandoning" some of the friends (real life friends) I used to chat with. But I don't like going "Invisible" just to chat with them. It makes me feel so "selective" which is not a nice feeling. Wayyy to complicated right? And the worst is that sometimes you are expected to chat, even when there is nothing to chat about! I really don't like having to force it...haha...maybe that's why I disappeared from MSN in the first place. The many months of my long holidays have been uneventful and nothing has ever happened, so what's there to chat about?? Anyway, it led to a chain cyle...with logging in getting more and more infrequent. Hehe, if anyone bothered to read till here, congrats. You're really patient!

This is for me too, not just you. I have been wondering whether I should go back to MSN...I know some of my friends miss me. I kinda miss them too. But I'm not gonna think about it now. As I said, chatting is added responsibility! At least for me, if not for you too.

Goodnight. Have a nice day. Hehe... :)

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

A game is exactly what it is.

A game is exactly what it is. A game, is just a game. I must not get to stressed out over a game. I must not worry about a game. i shouldn't care if i win or lose a game. It shouldn't bother me even if I get wiped out. I will not care...as long as I have done my duty and supported my allies. It doesn't mattter if I am wiped out, after all, this is just a game. Remember that. It doesn't matter. So don't waste too much time on a game. Just play to have fun. Being too active has its drawbacks.

Sometimes you gotta be selfish to win a game: betray your neighbours, abandon your friends when they need help. But hey, this is what happens in real life too. I guess games are part of real life, since there are REAL people behind that screen. The relationships we build are REAL. It's like survivor. It IS a game. You have to outwit, outplay and outlast. But at the same time, you're playing against real people, not a computer. So how would you play the game? If I joined survivor, I guess I would be the loyal, hardworking, but weak type...but totally paranoid too. haha.