Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Stuff to remember...

A reducing sugar occurs when its anomeric carbon (the carbon which is linked to two oxygen atoms) is in the free form. (Check pic of sucrose, glucose, fructose, maltose)

To get sequence SIMILARITY and identity, use Blast2seq... It's like Blast, except you click "align two or more sequences" and enter the sequences... :)

Sunday, January 24, 2010

It kinda sux

It kinda sux that I don't have real talent for anything, especially for things that I like to do.

I like to sing, I think I've got musical talent, but then my voice isn't the best. It's a bit high and lacks "body", it doesn't have a nice tone, and sometimes (most times) it sounds nasally. And I can't sustain singing for long, especially high notes... My voice cracks too easily, and the high notes are hard to do. And I don't have stamina, or a proper breathing technique. Won't it be great if I can sing like David Archuleta? Adam Lambert? Miley Cyrus? Beyonce? :) For musical instruments, I can't play anything except a recorder, but I can't sing and play the recorder at the same time! So that sux.

I also like to play games...online games or pc games. But I don't have any talent and I'm not very good at it. I used to play these short flash games on Neopets, but I always struggled to get a good score. It seemed so unfair that some of these people could have many many trophies for high scores in almost EVERY game!! WTF? I can't even get a high-score trophy in a single game! Then there's other games like Utopia or Realms of Empires (Facebook game) where some people can do so much with the limited resources they have-unlike me...I'm only average. DOTA?? Don't even mention it. Noobish I am...

Writing. Some people have the talent to write, I have barely any. I can't write in any distinctive way, I lack "flair" and don't seem to have any inborn talent with words. I can't write anything that is "engaging" or which can "immerse" you in my world. I'm not even witty, nor do I have wicked humour. I have difficulty describing scenes, and what I like most are simply...dialogue! Haha. But a story can't ONLY have dialogue now can it?

Gardening? I just started, but it seems my plants are having a slow start... no green fingers here. All I have are blistered hands :(

What else do I like to do. Watch tv! I don't need any talent for that. Haha. It doesn't take much to slouch on a chair and stare at a box. Switching chanels during adverts. I'm pretty good at guessing when advertisements end and so that's pretty good I guess. Haha? Time to watch Merlin now, my favourite show nowadays, because TV basically sux. There's not much to watch anymore nowadays.

Swimming? My lap time is double that of a pro-swimmer and I don't have much stamina, nor do I have strength to sprint.

Cooking? Nothing wonderful. Edible I guess... nice maybe... but nothing that makes you go "mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm"...

Studying? I hated doing it. I was the highest achiever in my uni batch, but really, if you compare me with students of other universities, I'd just turn out average or maybe above average...

So now you know I'm only average/above average at what I do! And suck at other things. I do wish I had talent to do something amazingly well... but oh well...too bad I guess. Ok, time to watch Merlin!

Morning Star

A morning star is a weapon. It's a nasty ball of spikes fastened to a chain. To use it, you swing it at your enemy, but be careful not to hit yourself with it. Or you may lose more than an eye. Maybe a ball too, if you're lucky.

A morning star is a star which can be seen in the early hours of morning. It must be a very bright star since the sky isn't that dark yet. Sometimes, bright planets can be mistaken as stars, but planets do not flicker, only stars do.

Sometimes when I look at the moon and stars, I wonder. Does all that truly exist? Is space and the universe real? Or are we just taught to believe it? maybe we are living in a box, and fed lies. Something like in "The Matrix" or Jim Carey's "The Truman Show". Maybe I am Truman. Maybe people are watching me. Haha. Maybe this is my first time communicating with my audience out there? Reaching out to you? Haha. Who knows. I mean, really. Have you ever been to outer space? It takes a lot of faith to believe in something and yet we easily believe in space and the universe. For all you know, it could just be a high sky dome!!! No such thing as outer space okay?

Then what about God? Why is it so hard to believe in God when all evidence is around us? Who knows what God is. We probably will never understand. When you look into the night sky, and all you see is black with some white flickering lights, you believe that space and the universe is out there. Yet, when you look at everything else small and big in the whole world, a single cell organism (how complicated it truly is), a hydrogen atom (how little we understand till now), or even just understanding ourselves, it's hard to believe in God. I mean everything here could be evidence of the existence of God right? My question is "Why is it hard to believe?".

Saturday, January 23, 2010

Sound a like songs

Take a listen to "The Cure" by Jordin Sparks... The begining is almost like Better in Time by Leona Lewis!! They are almost as similar as the controversial couple: Kelly Clarkson/Beyonce's Already Gone/Halo. Haha...and "The Cure" has parts of "halo" too. I can see your halo...halo...halo...

And One Republic's new song "All the right moves" has a remarkably similar one line to T.a.t.u's "Not gonna get us"...Compare the two lines "All the right things in all the right places" from One Republic to "They're not gonna get us" from T.a.t.u. I think they sound quite a like...

Damn...and I just realised the first four piano notes opening "All the right moves" sounds just like the first four notes opening "21 Guns" by greenday.

But I don't really mind..just thought to point it out! :)

Of course everyone (Indonesian music lovers) also knows that Sampson's Kenangan Terindah sounds like the opening tune from Anggun's Mimpi.

I think I've blogged this be4, Bunga Cinta Lestari's Ingkar sounds like the opening theme from First Wave (Tv series).

We the King's "Heaven can wait" sounds alot like Kelly Clarkson's "My life would suck without you"...don't you agree?

John Mayer's Hearbrake warfare and Kelly Clarkson's sober. The phrase "If you want, more love.. why don't you say so" sounds like a phrase from Sober...

Any others you know of?

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Nice

In our rhythm of earthly life we tire of light.

We are glad when the day ends, when the play ends; and ecstasy is too much pain.

We are children quickly tired: Children who are up in the night and fall asleep as the rocket is fired; and the day is long for work or play.

We tire of distraction or concentration, we sleep and are glad to sleep.

Controlled by the rhythm of blood and the day and the night and the seasons.

And we must extinguish the candle, put out the light and relight it;

Forever must quench, forever relight the flame


Thomas Stearns Eliot


from Chorus from "The Rock", X

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

oh oh

I should be full of excitement, full of energy, full of confidence, ready to continue my Masters tomorrow, as I drive back to uni, walk through the familiar hallways, back to my lecturer's room, who's always nice, back to the lab where so much happened last year, except that this time, it's gonna be empty, most of my friends are gone, the lab instead will be filled with a bunch of new noisy students, rushing for machines, showing their selfish side (I hope not), and my lecturer probably has this whole new expectation from me now that I'm no more an undergrad, a research which I once considered easy, now being more difficult, having to look at my seniors now as friends and equals, having to treat them as such, not having my usual lunch company/companion, no more lab partner, no more gaming sessions at lab, the returning feeling of nervousness when I've to meet people, and basically, more negativity which is a total turn around considering I did have a great time last year, and everyone says 2010 is gonna be even better than 2009.

So anyway, I need to become fearless this year. Driven, focussed, fearless, hardworking, friendly, less arrogant, less shy, more humble, more intelligent, more professional, more grown up. But no1 is Fearless. Fear is the mind killer. Remember that. There is nothing to fear. Not even death, failure, people, embarassment, nothing. Nothing to fear as long as I've tried my best.

Goodnight, dear readers.

Friday, January 1, 2010

Feeling light

Hahahaha...

I guess it's good to know how drunk people feel. But now I still can think logically... only that I feel a bit tipsy. Still a long way from real drunkness... just a little light and tipsi.?? I can type at lightning speed. In fact, even faster than normal. Maybe because it's because of the limitation of thought? Just the reflexes typing here? haha... this is promising. Psychologists should research this right now!!

Haha..tiipsi...typsi? how should it be spelled??

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

Haha

It's new year's day. I am drunk?? Maybe a little. I just had a little vomit. A tiny little one into the toilet bowl. After the 1 single vomit (meaning a single regurgitation), I went out of the toilet, and I found a little bit of saliva on the door of the toilet. Anyway, I'm still mostly sober I suppose. Since I can type this. Haha, anyway, it feels a little bit different with alcohol in the system. I guess I feel a little light, but besides that, I can still think logically and type properly. Not having trouble at all, in fact i am typing at light speed right now. Maybe after the vomit, I am getting better. Haha. Anyway, nothing much lah...this is it. Bye...

Happy New Year!!!