Meaningful to Me

Some things about me... (1)

2012-02-12T16:33:00.003+08:00

I have this problem where I start something but can never follow through till completion. I have wanted to do sooooo many things but always stop halfway once the going gets tough or I lose interest. Here is a list of ten things which I have wanted to do but never managed to do it till completion.

1. Finish reading the Bible
2. Get Fit (jogging, swimming, pull weights, sit straight, etc)
3. Learn Mandarin
4. Learn the Piano
5. Learn the Flute
6. Do gardening/farming
7. Write a book/story longer than 50k words
8. Helping around the house
9. Learn shuffling
10. Improve my singing voice

Let's start with no.1. When I was young, I read the children's bible. That bible had 365 stories, 1 story a day. I am glad to say that I have finished that, so at least I know most of the most important Bible stories. But that children's bible is not enough to get me to heaven, so I decided to read a real Bible. A few years back, I managed to read up from Genesis right up to Chronicles. Then suddenly, I just lost interest and never read the bible for years. Now I am reading the bible again. This time, the old testament. I am at Matthew, and I wonder how far I will get this time.

I've always had this super thin scrawny body which I hate. So, every once in a while, I will try to get fit. I will go exercising and even increase my food intake (like eating several eggs a day). Usually this will last a few weeks and then I will see (and feel) no difference, and I will gget lazy once again and stop exercising all together. Recently, I went swimming after months of not swimming and I had lost everything I had gained before. I used to be able to swim 10 laps non-stop, and I couldn't even do 4 this time. That's what I hate about exercise, it has to be constant!

No. 3 is learn Mandarin. Epic fail. Self learning a language is hard.

No. 4. Learn the Piano. Epic fail. Self learning the piano is hard. Till now!! I have discovered a wonderful teacher on youtube. His name is Andrew and his username is Lypur. Go search "learn piano" and you will definitely find him. I am at lesson 7 now, only 33 more lessons to go. I was surprised that what I had learned in the Introduction to Music course I had taken in my second year of university actually came back to me, so this time, learning the piano should not be *that* hard. But I still wonder if I am going to make it to lesson 40. Give me some encouragement okay....

Which brings me to no5, learn the flute. I know the recorder very well, so how much harder could a flute be? But a flute is sooo much more "professional" than a recorder. A recorder is for kids. So I asked my mother to buy me a flute, instead she bought me a picolo. Anyway, I never managed to make that clear flute sound, so slowly I gave up. I still play the recorder on a regular basis, it's so easy. Not like the flute. (Fullstop).

No.6 is gardening. At one time, I decided that I wanted to spend less time online. This was the time when I was playing "farmville" on facebook. So I decided to make my real-life "farm". I started planting tomatoes, ladysfingers, various herbs, dragon fruit and even tried planting papaya. My tomatoes and ladysfingers yielded one AWESOME harvest, then they died (annual plants-what do you expect). The various herbs (oregano, basil etc) slowly got overgrown by weeds and died. The dragonfruit plant fruited several times and then got overgrown by weeds and never fruited again. The papaya remained stunted and eventually died. And so did my interest in gardening.

No. 7. Writing is so much harder than reading. I do writing on and off, ocassionally having an outburst of creativity and stories to tell. I can write severak thousand words at a time during those times, then slowly I get lazy and stop writing. Months or sometimes even years later, I will continue the story and thankfully, I never actually forget these stories I am writing so I can just continue where I left off. Sadly, nothing is near completion and many of my earlier stories have just stopped-dead ended. You can see by my blog also how I initially posted lots of stuff, then eventually just stopped writing here, and now I am back. This pattern keeps repeating in everything I do huh?

No.8. Sometimes I will do the housework, especially when I pity my mom doing all the difficult chores like watering the plants. Usually I will take over for a few days to several weeks and then I will get lazy and stop. My mom will have to takeover again. How lazy can I be huh? Recently, the house maid stopped coming so I have been helping with the house work once in a while. I wonder how long I will continue to help around this time. Perhaps indefinitely? Hopefully.

No.9 is shuffling. Long after the shuffling craze had hit, just a few months ago, I saw someone shuffling on TV and decided it was cool. Before that, I had not even known what shuffling was even though it was all the hype. So I opened youtube and decided to learn how to shuffle. I did it once or twice, and it was good exercise too! Unfortunately, my feet started to blister and so I quit.

No. 10 is to improve my singing voice. I love to sing, but unfortunately, I dont have much stamina and can't hit the high notes well. Once in awhile, I will sing more often than usual in an effort to improve my voice, but because I can't see any improvement, I end up quitting. What a surprise huh!

So there you have it, ten things which I have always wanted to do, but always fail. Are there any labels you can give to me besides lazyness?

Book Reviews (4)

2012-02-12T16:10:00.004+08:00

The Armageddon Strain (Book 1 of The Countdown series by Sharon Gilbert)

I purchased this hardcover book at a Christian bookstore for only RM9.90, a real bargain. At first, I had thought that the book was out of place, it wasn't a real Christian book, and that the storekeeper had mistakenly purchased it because of the book title. I thought it was a book dealing with viruses and SCIENCE. I was right, for about half the book. Then, came the scenes containing religion, demons and other supernatural beings.

This book is rather fast paced, too fast paced for my liking because it skips out on description and characterization, and the author often skips from scene to scene, often each scene introducing new characters. There are far too many characters and little time is spent to flesh them out. Only the main characters get some meat, though even minor characters are given memorable names like Carrot-top. I did feel for some characters, especially Meiers. Also, Maggie, the lead female, seemed to be the desire of all men, and she has so many love interests, including her divorced husband. Also of note, most characters in this book are middle age or at least not young.

The ending was extremely disappointing and anti-climatic. Even though this is the first book in a series, I believe it should have been given a decent ending. Despite all the negatives, the book did keep me entertained, and some parts were memorable, but it was fatally killed by the ending, thus getting a 5/10. I would not recommend a purchase unless at a bargain price or someone lends it to you :)

A busy, busy day.

2012-02-09T16:08:00.002+08:00

"You've had a busy, busy day."- Christina Yang, Grey's anatomy, Season 7 Finale.

Yes, I've had a busy, busy day. I did four preps of plasmid extractions (two tubes each time), did a PCR, ran two gels, did a 6 hour ligation reaction (with manual water bath keeping temperature at 16C) all done in about six and a half hours. So yes, I've had a busy, busy day. I even had time to go for a 40 minute lunch in between. And I managed to blog, lurk on facebook and even listen to music on youtube. But I missed the battlestation wars on facebook today. That's okay because work always comes first. Oh, I was also supposed to do a transformation for the ligation reaction I was preparing, but the lab next door (with the -80C freezer holding my competent cells) was locked, so I couldn't do it. Anyway, I think my last gel is about done now, so bye. I'll be going home after viewing it. Fare the well and yes, I've had a busy, busy day.

The illness spreads

2012-01-15T00:35:00.002+08:00

The illness spreads like a malignant disease. It creeps and seeps into every nook and cranny of my being. It is a permeating cough that comes at night after the midnight bell has chimed. I can't sleep. I twist and turn, hugging a pillow to my chest, hoping to protect my fragile lungs from the cold wind billowing from the fan. I keep coughing, that whooping cough that yields no phlegm. Slowly I descend into a frenzied sleep. Like my body, my mind is plagued with disease; another disease that hijacks my brain and directs my thoughts towards insanity. In a semi-dazed state, I am one with the dark elves. Their evil is my evil. I cull the weak, betray my "friends", and murder my siblings. I am rescued by the break of day. When I wake, my mind wants to continue the dream. It is fun, but I get up anyway, after wasting more time just lying in bed. My cough is better now, but I know when I go to sleep, the cycle continues.

Book Reviews(3)

2012-01-04T23:16:00.002+08:00

Brisingr! That's the 3rd book in the Inheritance cycle by Christopher Paolini. In this book, he really proved some points that I had made in my review of his earlier books. His writing has improved, but then he still writes things that makes me question the plot. And then he kills off another character at the end, surprise, surprise. The begining of the book was well written, especially the long awaited fight with the Razac. But then it got boring and very destination oriented, which means Eragon decided to go to location A, B, C then D, E and then F all in that order which seems too planned out. Most of the time, Eragon also acts childish (technically he is a child) and his outbursts are rather out of character for a "hero" figure. And when the time comes (the big battle at the end) where he can kill dozens of men with any of a handful of killing words, he conveniently forgets that he has that power. Instead he kills them the slow and tedious way so his army still has a job to do. The final battle was not believable considering that Eragon has grown so powerful but yet for no explained reason, did not use his powers. Overall, this book was still entertaining and fun, and I do care about the characters, story and the world that I will try to obtain the last book, Inheritance which was recently released. However, because of the flawed last battle, his tendency to kill characters at the end/begining to move the plot, and an almost methodological plot, this book gets a 8/10. I have been over critical so here are some of the good things. Indeed, there are many good things, especially Eragon and Saphira's relationship, the scenery and the view of the world through Eragon/Saphira's eyes, the student-teacher relationship, the many strong women characters, and lastly Roran's struggles which make me worry about Roran in every battle he is in, since he is not the central character, thus subject to death.

Book Reviews (2)

2011-12-13T22:02:00.002+08:00

I just reformatted my laptop and I'm currently downloading Adobe Reader. Quite surprised that the file size is 60+MB!! So while waiting, I have some spare time to kill and so, I will fulfill the promise I made awhile back. Not a real promise, but rather something that I said I would do.

The review of ERAGON!

Anyway, I'm done reading ELDEST. So I'll review it as well.

Eragon (7/10)
Eldest (8.5/10)

I enjoyed reading Eragon, but throughout Eragon's journey through Alagaesia, I kept questioning the author's credibility. Maybe I knew that this was Paulini's first book and had some prejudices since I knew he wrote this book when he was still a teenager. Or maybe the plot was too contrived. The entire plot seemed to be a sequence of events that the author wanted to happen, and he made Eragon do it as if he had no other choice, no matter how rediculous the plot actually was. Nevertheless, Eragon was fun to read and good enough that I continued on reading Eldest.

I quite enjoyed reading Eldest and found it to be much better written than Eragon. I really enjoyed the magic system in this book and Eragon's relationship with his dragon Saphira. I found most of the characters interesting and likeable although there were too many random villagers whose names I just skipped and didn't really want to get to know. The author's writing has matured althouth there are still some major flaws in the plot and the twists are quite predictable. I found the character Eragon to be quite realistic in the sense that he isn't perfect at all, but this makes him a little bit annoying especially with his self-righteous and better-than-you attitude. Also the author has a tendency to simply kill off important people just to move the plot. I don't mind the fact that a King can die too, but DO IT WITH STYLE. And don't do it so obviously and casually just so you can have something to write about.

I'm going to rant below, SPOILER ALERT.

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GRRRRrr. Anyone reading would know that Murtagh DIDN'T DIE in the first chapter. How the F*ck could Eragon believe it when there was no body and all he saw was "black" when he scryed! Grrr. What a noob you are Eragon... K, that's my number 1 complaint. My second complaint is after the battle which lasted a single day, the empire still had a huge army right? Why would they be "routed" after losing a minor skirmish? All the mobilization and you would expect a 100 year war but it is over in 1 day.

Wrong Priorities

2011-11-30T11:48:00.005+08:00

(Narrated in the style of Meredith Grey)

The world is a messed up place. I have often wondered, why do farmers earn so little. They are very important people. We depend on them to survive. Their work is tough; working a whole day in the fields under the hot sun till their muscles ache. Then they return home late in the evening, and prepare for another day. Imagine if all the farmers went on strike and money could not buy food. Where would we get food from? We would starve to death or learn to grow our own food. Then we'd realise how lucky we are. I think society needs to re-arrange the priorities. A farmer should earn no less than a doctor if he works just as hard. After all, how is a Doctor's job of "saving lives" more important than a farmer's job of "nurturing life"? It's not.

Which brings me to the next topic. Money. How much money we have defines how much we are worth. Money is like a form of credit or bartering chip. For every service rendered (unless it's free service), we earn money. Then we can exchange that money for something else (ie. buying something). A service that we have done earlier enables us to gain something back, at a later date. It's a good system, where one contributes something and gets something back from his contribution, now, or at a later date. Supposedly, those who are very rich with wealth to last three generations have done so much for the society that they can simply live and do nothing for the rest of their lives. Think of it this way, when they spend money, they are extracting back the benefits of the favours they have done earlier in life. If they deserve it, why not. But unfortunately, many will lie, cheat and steal to earn money which they don't deserve. They manipulate others and inflate their self-worth. They become filthy rich, but at the expense of others. The money has to come from somewhere, usually from the toil and labor of others. In other words, these "rich" people are unjustly taking the self-worth of others and claiming it as their own. Even more unfortunately, the "survival of the fittest" seems to favour not only the best among us, but also the dishonest and those who can inflate their self-worth artificially.

A late night

2011-11-29T21:53:00.002+08:00

Another late night. Alone again. It was a beautiful night, dark and peaceful. The silhouettes of the trees swayed gently behind the glowing orange streetlights. Leaves swirled in the air, following the rhythm of the air current. I turned the air-con down to 1 and pushed the blower away from me. It was getting chilly.

I was driving slowly, though the road was deserted. I was still faster than the campus speed limit of 40, but at this speed, I was sure the guards would not stop me. I looked at the newly completed Grand Hall as it passed on my left. It was a massive cylindrical building, more than five stories high. Painted white with green criss-cross bands all over it, it looked incomplete, a rushed work. It would be used for this year’s graduation ceremony which would be in October, just next month. I would love to attend, if I was given an invite.

I rounded the curve and came to a small roundabout , taking the three quarter exit which led to the boulevard leading in and out of the campus. I passed the guardhouse, waved politely at the guard. He grinned back at me and waved me past. I knew the guy, he was the friendly handsome guy. It was late, so he did not check the car boot. The guards only checked the car boots at about 5pm, the time just after office hours. I always wondered why. It made it so easy for me to steal some fancy lab machine, had I wanted to.

I stopped at the traffic lights and waited for my turn. When the light flicked green, I turned to the right and cruised down the deserted road, keeping a healthy 90-100. I glanced at the clock. It was already 1146pm. Not that late, but I was rather exhausted today. My energy level was down low, and even at 1, the chill of the air-con was giving me the creeps. I turned it off. I fingered the quick-control button on the steering wheel, sampling each radio station for a few seconds each. There was nothing good. I switched to CD. Amy Winehouse begun whining how I knew she was no good. Actually, I thought she was good. I loved her voice and unique style and the beats that accompanied her music though I only fully-appreciated her after her untimely passing. I drove on the right lane, the fast lane. Indeed I was the fastest car that night as I overtook a few slow drivers crawling on the left. They were playing it safe, driving slowly. Good thing they took the left, or they would have really annoyed me. I slowed down as I came to the first round about. Traffic was clear, so I did not stop. I entered the roundabout, took the first exit and continued cruising down the straight road.

Tears Dry on Their Own began to play and I thought of the wonderful video that came with my favourite song. Her pierced upper lip was so sexy, especially when it wasn’t studded, and her boobs were so big in that tiny dress she wore. I had once googled “did Amy Winehouse get a boob job”. Some website said she did. But I still don’t really know. Can’t really trust websites these days. But I think she did. You know celebrities these days. I came to the next roundabout and after that drove across the bridge. Even at this ungodly hour, there were people fishing. Most were men, dressed in simple clothes. They held on to their rods, their lines reaching many meters down the bridge into the water. Seemed like fun. They just parked their motorbikes on the shoulder of the road. I sometimes wished I could go fishing like them, but then, where would I park my car? And who would I go with? I continued on, came to the final roundabout which marked the entrance to the city-proper. Back to civilization. I took the first left exit and continued on my journey home.

The road was still rather deserted all the way back home. It took about 30 minutes all in all, from the moment my car left the carpark, till my car entered the driveway. Reaching home, I saw my mom was still awake, watching TV upstairs. I screamed out that I was home. Then I quickly gobbled up the rice and chicken curry she had left for me on the dining table. I went to the room, got changed. It was far too cold to bathe. I turned the air-con on to cool the room, then went upstairs and checked my downloads. Damn, only 800mb, so slow. I had left my computer on the whole day, and only about 800mb worth of downloads. I felt screwed somehow. I checked my facebook, scanned through the hundreds of new posts. About half an hour later, I came back down to sleep. I quickly brushed my teeth, turned off the air-con, turned on the fan, and snuggled into bed. I crept out of bed and shouted to my mom to wake me at 630 tomorrow. Then I set my own alarm-clock, can’t afford to be late, and snuggled back into bed.

The damn chicken woke me up at about 623 the next morning. Nothing like having three alarm clocks, one biological, two mechanical. Or is it the other way around, two biological and one mechanical? THE END.

FICTION
-this is a work of FICTION.

Yay

2011-11-29T21:43:00.000+08:00

My blog is alive. :p

Book Reviews (1)

2011-11-29T20:03:00.004+08:00

Here are some books that I have read in the past year or so. I've never wrote a book review before and damnnnn it's hard to write a book review, especially since it's been awhile since I've read these books. The last book I've read, Eragon, will be in a separate post.
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The Hunger Games Trilogy (Suzanne Collins):
The Hunger Games
Catching Fire
MockingJay
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Rating: 10/10 <- Must read
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I couldn't write something that describes how good these books are. Definitely among the best books that I've ever read.
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The Wicked Times (Gregory Maguire):
Wicked: The life and Times of the Wicked Witch of the west
Son of a Witch
A lion among men
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Sometimes, Wicked is hard to understand, and sometimes even boring. But even that cannot diminish the greatness of this book. Wicked is an alternate version to "The Wizard of Oz". The awesomeness of this book comes from it's characters, mainly the "wicked" witch of the west, Elphie. She isn't the evil witch that she is portrayed in "The Wizard of Oz" at all. I've always had a thing for "villains", and this was the other side of her story. It was interesting to meet the many characters in this book, such as the "Goodie Two Shoe" Dorothy. In Wicked, she was a real person (although slightly dumb), not the self-righteous bastard that killed the witch in the Wizard of Oz. I had a great time reading Wicked and couldn't get enough. The sequel, son of a Witch is a fitting continuation to the story but I found A Lion Among Men to be slightly below par.
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Incarceron (Catherine Fisher)
Saphique (Catherine Fisher)
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A great adventure. Unique setting and plot.
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Bartimaeus Trilogy: The amulet of Samarkand (Jonathan Stroud)
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A fun read although boring at times and very long winded. Great concept and plot.
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My sister's keeper (Judy Picoult)
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This story is told from the first person's point of view, from multiple perspectives. Great characterization and plot. However, be warned that the ending was so bad and unbelievable that it ruined an otherwise awesome book.
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The Alchemist (Paulo Coelho)
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Tuesday's with Morrie (Mitch Albom)
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The Spirit Thief (Rachel Aaron)
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Demonwar Saga (Raymond E. Feist)
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I grew up reading Raymond E. Feist. For a long time, he was my only source of fantasy. I have almost a complete collection of his earlier works in paperback. I loved the world of Midkemia, and most ESPECIALLY Kelewan. I loved all his characters. In the Demonwar Saga, REF really REALLY ruined it for me. Let's say it ended with a REALLY big bang. For what it's worth, it was awesomely written though. Anyway, the Demonwar saga is quite different from the other REF books, especially the setting. Definitely worth a read if you are a REF fan. If you're not yet a fan, start with his earlier books (Riftwar Trilogy and Empire Trilogy) and you'll love him.
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In Progress:
Eldest (Christopher Paolini)
East of Eden (John Steinbeck)
Bartimaeus Trilogy: The Golem's eye (Jonathan Stroud)

I'm back

2011-10-28T12:06:00.002+08:00

When life is good, I tend to stop updating my blog. This has happened to my previous blogs which have unfortunately...*died*. But this blog will not die. I am inspired to continue writing on. My friend Olee's awesome story-blog and her insane writing skills make me want to keep doing this.

It's not that I have totally stopped writing, I have writen a little; a few pieces of short fantasty fiction and I have continued my long-ongoing Desert Princess story. Managed to add a few chapters and at least 10k words in the past year or so. I've been working on it on and off- for about 6 years now. 85k words currently, not too bad.

I'm in the lab now. It's 12:18pm. The undergraduate student is preparing competent cells today and I'm sorta supervising. Hope she doesn't do a google search and find my blog somehow. Haha. Anyway, I'll be going home early today and coming back to the lab tomorrow to continue my work.

And I should update my movies and favourite songs page!!

I dream

2010-07-13T12:32:00.003+08:00

I dream of Thrace, Smyrna and Corinth. What it would be like living in those ancient times. Untamed landscapes, green as far as the eye can see. Just running around, carefree and happy, the wind blowing my hair wild.

I dream of Darius, Xerxes and Alexander. How it would feel to live their lives. How can a single man rule the world? How great each of these people are...to achieve so much, at such a young age. Great leaders, amazing talents. What strengths and determination they must possess?

I dream of 19th century Vienna, Paris and Rome. The awe i would feel when i enter these cities for the first time. The center of civilization. The pinaccle of culture and asthetics.

I dream I am Pug meeting Kulgan that very first time. In Kulgan's tiny cabin, the only shelter from the beating rain. The smell of roasting pork fills the air. Smoke billows from the fireplace. Warmth and companionship. Delicious food. What more could want ask?

I dream of the Apostles of Christ, Paul, Peter and the others. How amazing that these people had the strength to travel the world and preach of Christ when confronted with opposition at every turn. Would you go to a foreign land, facing hardships of all sorts when you could be comfortable at home?

I dream of my mom's younger days. What a happy childhood she had, playing with all her cousins and friends. They had no computers, and they had fun! For sure, more fun than i have playing my computer games.

I dream I am at home now, eating that delicious fish curry with that new curry paste I just bought. Mmm it would taste so good, I am sure. Maybe not as good as Meecham's roast pork, but still good.

Sometimes I wonder about my life and the path I've chosen. It's as if I could not achieve anything. Nothing I would do would impact the world the way Alexander, the Apostles of Christ or countless other historical figures have done. Even Obama, the most powerful man alive cannot compare to any of these great men. Perhaps in the past, people single handedly built cities, conquered nations and ruled the world. But now people don't do things alone. Now, we have to work together, and the credit is split, no longer belonging to one man alone. Perhaps I want to be a great man someday, but I am growing old. If it is to be, it has to be now.

Hunter-Gatherers

2010-05-19T10:27:00.011+08:00

In just several thousand years, the lives of humanity has changed. Once, life was simple. All we did was look for food, water and shelter. We were hunter-gatherers. Some were hunters, hunting wildlife for meat. Others were gatherers, gathering plants and fruit, gathering branches to light a fire. We lived in caves, or perhaps simple huts, easy to construct, easy to dismantle. From our day to day existence, there was little time for anything else. We needed to hunt/gather just to survive.

(Source:http://tracksuitceo.files.wordpress.com/2007/07/caveman.jpg?w=180&h=154)

But now times have changed. From the moment humans started farming, and food became an overabundance, everything changed. The extra time has allowed humans to do other things. Fight, think, and dream. The thinkers started to invent things like "The Wheel" and "Mathematics" and soon, civilizations were born. The fighters on the other hand, started fighting, killing, and warring. The dreamers started dreaming... most dreamers never got anything done, but a few dreamers accomplished the impossible. At the same time, religion was born, either by divine intervention or by human invention.

Besides farming, there are several other important traits/events that humans have which allowed us to become who we are today. Humans have always been community people. The exchange and sharing of ideas and resources, teamwork in hunting, building and all activites have greatly benefited humans. Social living has allowed humans to fluorish and accomplish all sorts of great feats. Human jealousy, rivalry and warring, also a form of social interaction has spurred on human advancement as one tries to outdo the other. Besides that, humans have the advantage of a well developed brain. The human brain is special. It allows us to "think" and do things which no other animal has done. Some claim it is the spirit/soul that humans have, which separates us from animals. Is it true? That is up to you to decide.

And here we are in the 21st century. After perhaps 5000-6000 years when we first started farming, we are now at a difficult time. Humanity has reached a critical period. The challenges of the 21st century are greater then ever because humans have become so powerful and technologically advanced, become so twisted and evil, become so vile and demented, become so lazy and lavish, become so carefree and careless, become so cruel and uncaring, become so individualistic and selfish, and becoming so godless and godlike. We are in danger of losing our humanity, destroying ourselves, or worst of all, extinguishing life on our planet.

Dreamz

2010-05-14T23:25:00.002+08:00

Since I've started going back to Uni, sometimes I no longer get 8 hours of sleep at night. Sometimes I get 6 to 7 hours if I've to go to Uni eaerly in the morning. Now this is not necesarily a bad thing. Sometimes I feel sleepy throughout the day, and when I come home in the early afternoon, I can actually fall asleep! I found this is a great time to dream... :)

It seems that I can dream during these afternoon naps, and when I awake, I will be in a semi-conscious state, and if I fall back to sleep, I'll still be semi conscious in the dream! It's semi-lucid dreaming I guess. The best part is the dream within a dream within a dream type of dream. That's because you're somewhat aware you're dreaming in your dream, so it's somewhat lucid. It happened today, and I hope it happens again!

The worst is when you can't awake from a dream...some dreams/nightmares are hard to escape. If you die in a dream, do you die in real life???

I really wish

2010-05-02T16:33:00.001+08:00

I really wish I could be on a cruise ship with Lady Gaga again, but it's been a long time since I had any dreams, lucid or otherwise... :(

RPG Me

2010-05-02T16:26:00.005+08:00

Primary attributes:
Strength: 9
Constitution: 9
Dexterity: 12
Intelligence: 14
Wisdom: 12
Charisma: 10

Secondary attributes:
Willpower: 14
Perception: 10
Luck: 18

Alignment: Lawful Neutral

If I were a character in an RPG, I think those stats would suit me. I would make a lousy character of course!! With those stats, I probably would do best as a wizard. But I'd need to sharpen my intel to be decent at least...

Note: 12 is the average score for each attribute

It just means that we... had a moment. The moment's over.

2010-04-04T00:32:00.004+08:00

I like this quote from Maggie Dekker.

Simple and sweet. Perhaps the moment would return, perhaps not. But what's important is we had a moment, and now the moment is over.

2 songs

2010-04-02T00:15:00.001+08:00

This one is from the Book of Eli:

And this one is from Invictus:

Struggling with my mortality

2010-04-02T00:07:00.002+08:00

This morning while I was driving, on the radio, there was an advert urging us to pledge ourselves as organ donors. As an organ donor, we could possibly save lives. Why not become one? For me, I feel as if I will never die. Some how, I feel like I will live till an old man or till the end of the world. I don't feel that i could die in a car accident or from some disease, although there is a really high chance of me dying. I guess I am struggling with my own mortality. I'm not willing to "admit" that there is a chance that I may die tomorrow or the day after. Instead, I go on thinking that I have many days left to live, not realising that tomorrow or the next day may very well be my last. Who knows? Only God knows. Would God give me a warning? Who knows? If he did, would I heed his warning? Probably not.

Anyway, I should stop living my life as if I have so long more to live. After all, I am only mortal. Come, together lets make the best of our remaining days.

On a cruise ship with Lady Gaga

2010-03-05T11:03:00.003+08:00

I woke up this morning with a fresh dream I just had.

I was at a Lady Gaga concert on a cruise ship. I was very close to the front, on the right side of the stage. Unfortunately, the crowd wasn't very good and didn't sing along or seem to enjoy her singing, so after a while she asked the audience to come on stage to sing along. I was totally wanting to, then when she looked at me and called me, I totally chickened out! So anyway, she got pissed and walked off, leaving us on the cruise ship with no Lady Gaga concert. Damn! The song Bad Romance was playing in my head when I woke up although I can't really recall what song she wanted me to sing. Haha, I just remembered that at that time I had a little stack of A4 papers with the lyrics on them and I was reading it at the concert..haha.

Another year

2010-02-19T00:54:00.002+08:00

This year Chinese New Year wasn't as tiring as usual. That's because I started preparing for it early, starting to clear the house several days before New Year's Eve and completing it before New Year's Day. Maybe it was the cool weather as well; it rained almost everyday and so I didn't sweat at all while visiting...And I turned in be4 2:30 every night, and woke up late (because of the rain which hampered early visiting) so I was well rested. :)

The only thing that made mum and I extra busy was cooking the food to serve people (and washing the plates and glasses later). Overall, it wasn't too hectic, but I didn't have much time to go online at all. So i was truly in "CNY" mood.

Compared to last year, this year, many people didn't give me ang pow... don't know why. I still look young wat...and still not working.

Went out with two batches of friends this year. My old Sec School mates and my Uni friends. I'm surprised that I actually felt comfortable with my sec school mates; maybe I even talked more to them then I did during school time (since I was VERY quiet then). Visiting with friends this year however, felt quite tiring... and sometimes we would just sit there and wait for time to pass, enjoying the aircon...haha. Not to say that it was boring, but I guess the word "leisurely" describes it.

In all, it was a nice new year. Happy Chinese New Year everyone.

This is for you

2010-02-12T00:47:00.003+08:00

This is for you Olee.

You got me distressed. Last night when I saw your post, I certainly thought you were meaning me. Not that I admit that I'm "smart", but I know that that's what you think of me. It's got me bothered because mostly it's true.

I've been avoiding MSN for some reasons. I used to be addicted to it, and spent lots of time chatting with friends. But now, I think I've changed. Playing facebook games in my thing. It's easier, with no responsibility required. You see, chatting sometimes is rather tedious. First, you gotta be online all the time. You can't just leave the computer and say "BRB" and go and do your thing, and come back later expecting your friend still to be there. Yeah, chatting is tedious. Then you get disturbed by people you don't really want to talk to and you have this really draggy conversation that you don't really want to have. Then there's other times that you want to talk to someone, but then you feel like they don't really want to talk to you. The opposite of what I just said. Yeah, probably it's just me that feels this way. Wayyy to complicated. I do feel guilty about "abandoning" some of the friends (real life friends) I used to chat with. But I don't like going "Invisible" just to chat with them. It makes me feel so "selective" which is not a nice feeling. Wayyy to complicated right? And the worst is that sometimes you are expected to chat, even when there is nothing to chat about! I really don't like having to force it...haha...maybe that's why I disappeared from MSN in the first place. The many months of my long holidays have been uneventful and nothing has ever happened, so what's there to chat about?? Anyway, it led to a chain cyle...with logging in getting more and more infrequent. Hehe, if anyone bothered to read till here, congrats. You're really patient!

This is for me too, not just you. I have been wondering whether I should go back to MSN...I know some of my friends miss me. I kinda miss them too. But I'm not gonna think about it now. As I said, chatting is added responsibility! At least for me, if not for you too.

Goodnight. Have a nice day. Hehe... :)

A game is exactly what it is.

2010-02-03T00:55:00.002+08:00

A game is exactly what it is. A game, is just a game. I must not get to stressed out over a game. I must not worry about a game. i shouldn't care if i win or lose a game. It shouldn't bother me even if I get wiped out. I will not care...as long as I have done my duty and supported my allies. It doesn't mattter if I am wiped out, after all, this is just a game. Remember that. It doesn't matter. So don't waste too much time on a game. Just play to have fun. Being too active has its drawbacks.

Sometimes you gotta be selfish to win a game: betray your neighbours, abandon your friends when they need help. But hey, this is what happens in real life too. I guess games are part of real life, since there are REAL people behind that screen. The relationships we build are REAL. It's like survivor. It IS a game. You have to outwit, outplay and outlast. But at the same time, you're playing against real people, not a computer. So how would you play the game? If I joined survivor, I guess I would be the loyal, hardworking, but weak type...but totally paranoid too. haha.

Stuff to remember...

2010-01-26T21:50:00.002+08:00

A reducing sugar occurs when its anomeric carbon (the carbon which is linked to two oxygen atoms) is in the free form. (Check pic of sucrose, glucose, fructose, maltose)

To get sequence SIMILARITY and identity, use Blast2seq... It's like Blast, except you click "align two or more sequences" and enter the sequences... :)

It kinda sux

2010-01-24T20:42:00.002+08:00

It kinda sux that I don't have real talent for anything, especially for things that I like to do.

I like to sing, I think I've got musical talent, but then my voice isn't the best. It's a bit high and lacks "body", it doesn't have a nice tone, and sometimes (most times) it sounds nasally. And I can't sustain singing for long, especially high notes... My voice cracks too easily, and the high notes are hard to do. And I don't have stamina, or a proper breathing technique. Won't it be great if I can sing like David Archuleta? Adam Lambert? Miley Cyrus? Beyonce? :) For musical instruments, I can't play anything except a recorder, but I can't sing and play the recorder at the same time! So that sux.

I also like to play games...online games or pc games. But I don't have any talent and I'm not very good at it. I used to play these short flash games on Neopets, but I always struggled to get a good score. It seemed so unfair that some of these people could have many many trophies for high scores in almost EVERY game!! WTF? I can't even get a high-score trophy in a single game! Then there's other games like Utopia or Realms of Empires (Facebook game) where some people can do so much with the limited resources they have-unlike me...I'm only average. DOTA?? Don't even mention it. Noobish I am...

Writing. Some people have the talent to write, I have barely any. I can't write in any distinctive way, I lack "flair" and don't seem to have any inborn talent with words. I can't write anything that is "engaging" or which can "immerse" you in my world. I'm not even witty, nor do I have wicked humour. I have difficulty describing scenes, and what I like most are simply...dialogue! Haha. But a story can't ONLY have dialogue now can it?

Gardening? I just started, but it seems my plants are having a slow start... no green fingers here. All I have are blistered hands :(

What else do I like to do. Watch tv! I don't need any talent for that. Haha. It doesn't take much to slouch on a chair and stare at a box. Switching chanels during adverts. I'm pretty good at guessing when advertisements end and so that's pretty good I guess. Haha? Time to watch Merlin now, my favourite show nowadays, because TV basically sux. There's not much to watch anymore nowadays.

Swimming? My lap time is double that of a pro-swimmer and I don't have much stamina, nor do I have strength to sprint.

Cooking? Nothing wonderful. Edible I guess... nice maybe... but nothing that makes you go "mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm"...

Studying? I hated doing it. I was the highest achiever in my uni batch, but really, if you compare me with students of other universities, I'd just turn out average or maybe above average...

So now you know I'm only average/above average at what I do! And suck at other things. I do wish I had talent to do something amazingly well... but oh well...too bad I guess. Ok, time to watch Merlin!

Morning Star

2010-01-24T00:32:00.002+08:00

A morning star is a weapon. It's a nasty ball of spikes fastened to a chain. To use it, you swing it at your enemy, but be careful not to hit yourself with it. Or you may lose more than an eye. Maybe a ball too, if you're lucky.

A morning star is a star which can be seen in the early hours of morning. It must be a very bright star since the sky isn't that dark yet. Sometimes, bright planets can be mistaken as stars, but planets do not flicker, only stars do.

Sometimes when I look at the moon and stars, I wonder. Does all that truly exist? Is space and the universe real? Or are we just taught to believe it? maybe we are living in a box, and fed lies. Something like in "The Matrix" or Jim Carey's "The Truman Show". Maybe I am Truman. Maybe people are watching me. Haha. Maybe this is my first time communicating with my audience out there? Reaching out to you? Haha. Who knows. I mean, really. Have you ever been to outer space? It takes a lot of faith to believe in something and yet we easily believe in space and the universe. For all you know, it could just be a high sky dome!!! No such thing as outer space okay?

Then what about God? Why is it so hard to believe in God when all evidence is around us? Who knows what God is. We probably will never understand. When you look into the night sky, and all you see is black with some white flickering lights, you believe that space and the universe is out there. Yet, when you look at everything else small and big in the whole world, a single cell organism (how complicated it truly is), a hydrogen atom (how little we understand till now), or even just understanding ourselves, it's hard to believe in God. I mean everything here could be evidence of the existence of God right? My question is "Why is it hard to believe?".

Sound a like songs

2010-01-23T15:55:00.004+08:00

Take a listen to "The Cure" by Jordin Sparks... The begining is almost like Better in Time by Leona Lewis!! They are almost as similar as the controversial couple: Kelly Clarkson/Beyonce's Already Gone/Halo. Haha...and "The Cure" has parts of "halo" too. I can see your halo...halo...halo...

And One Republic's new song "All the right moves" has a remarkably similar one line to T.a.t.u's "Not gonna get us"...Compare the two lines "All the right things in all the right places" from One Republic to "They're not gonna get us" from T.a.t.u. I think they sound quite a like...

Damn...and I just realised the first four piano notes opening "All the right moves" sounds just like the first four notes opening "21 Guns" by greenday.

But I don't really mind..just thought to point it out! :)

Of course everyone (Indonesian music lovers) also knows that Sampson's Kenangan Terindah sounds like the opening tune from Anggun's Mimpi.

I think I've blogged this be4, Bunga Cinta Lestari's Ingkar sounds like the opening theme from First Wave (Tv series).

We the King's "Heaven can wait" sounds alot like Kelly Clarkson's "My life would suck without you"...don't you agree?

John Mayer's Hearbrake warfare and Kelly Clarkson's sober. The phrase "If you want, more love.. why don't you say so" sounds like a phrase from Sober...

Any others you know of?

Nice

2010-01-21T21:16:00.002+08:00

In our rhythm of earthly life we tire of light.

We are glad when the day ends, when the play ends; and ecstasy is too much pain.

We are children quickly tired: Children who are up in the night and fall asleep as the rocket is fired; and the day is long for work or play.

We tire of distraction or concentration, we sleep and are glad to sleep.

Controlled by the rhythm of blood and the day and the night and the seasons.

And we must extinguish the candle, put out the light and relight it;

Forever must quench, forever relight the flame

Thomas Stearns Eliot

from Chorus from "The Rock", X

oh oh

2010-01-12T00:01:00.003+08:00

I should be full of excitement, full of energy, full of confidence, ready to continue my Masters tomorrow, as I drive back to uni, walk through the familiar hallways, back to my lecturer's room, who's always nice, back to the lab where so much happened last year, except that this time, it's gonna be empty, most of my friends are gone, the lab instead will be filled with a bunch of new noisy students, rushing for machines, showing their selfish side (I hope not), and my lecturer probably has this whole new expectation from me now that I'm no more an undergrad, a research which I once considered easy, now being more difficult, having to look at my seniors now as friends and equals, having to treat them as such, not having my usual lunch company/companion, no more lab partner, no more gaming sessions at lab, the returning feeling of nervousness when I've to meet people, and basically, more negativity which is a total turn around considering I did have a great time last year, and everyone says 2010 is gonna be even better than 2009.

So anyway, I need to become fearless this year. Driven, focussed, fearless, hardworking, friendly, less arrogant, less shy, more humble, more intelligent, more professional, more grown up. But no1 is Fearless. Fear is the mind killer. Remember that. There is nothing to fear. Not even death, failure, people, embarassment, nothing. Nothing to fear as long as I've tried my best.

Goodnight, dear readers.

Feeling light

2010-01-01T22:35:00.002+08:00

Hahahaha...

I guess it's good to know how drunk people feel. But now I still can think logically... only that I feel a bit tipsy. Still a long way from real drunkness... just a little light and tipsi.?? I can type at lightning speed. In fact, even faster than normal. Maybe because it's because of the limitation of thought? Just the reflexes typing here? haha... this is promising. Psychologists should research this right now!!

Haha..tiipsi...typsi? how should it be spelled??

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

Haha

2010-01-01T22:26:00.003+08:00

It's new year's day. I am drunk?? Maybe a little. I just had a little vomit. A tiny little one into the toilet bowl. After the 1 single vomit (meaning a single regurgitation), I went out of the toilet, and I found a little bit of saliva on the door of the toilet. Anyway, I'm still mostly sober I suppose. Since I can type this. Haha, anyway, it feels a little bit different with alcohol in the system. I guess I feel a little light, but besides that, I can still think logically and type properly. Not having trouble at all, in fact i am typing at light speed right now. Maybe after the vomit, I am getting better. Haha. Anyway, nothing much lah...this is it. Bye...

Happy New Year!!!

I am dumb...

2009-12-24T17:49:00.004+08:00

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Someone on Facebook said I'm the cleverest person they know. If that is true, then the world is in a very sad and dire state.

I don't even know basic physics. I can't fix an electronic device. If the world ends, and I am one of the few survivors of the apocalypse, I would contribute nothing to the rebuilding of earth! I can't even build a simple light bulb, build a battery, or bake a brick. I wouldn't even be able to create bronze tools. Bronze-age (Bronze culture) man is better than I am.

Imagine that 5000 thousand years ago, people could build pyramids and other wonders of the world that we would struggle to recreate now. I think that humans have indeed regressed, not evolved. It's a good thing that we have stored our knowledge, gathered over the centuries. If not for writing, humans would be nothing. Writing is the most important tool, to pass down and distribute knowledge.

As a biotechnologist, perhaps I can "genetically engineer bacteria". But without the micropipettes, enzymes, reagents, it would be impossible to do anything. Without online journals, it is also impossible. Without knowledge passed on from others, impossible. What actually do I remember? Only the basic theories. I don't even know the basic structure of glucose. I would struggle to draw DNA. I forgot most of my chemistry. It's embarassing. So if I am one of the few survivors of an apocalypse, without my computer, internet, my contribution to rebuild humanity would be close to nothing.

So in the next few years, I hope that I will learn more things, basic knowledge, become an all rounder and learn more things which are actually useful and important.

The End...

2009-12-24T01:05:00.003+08:00

Unfortunately, Eli Stone, the best tv series will not be renewed for another season.

Anyway, it's one of the best tv series of late, and definitely one of the most touching (if not the most) drama I've ever watched. Terrific acting, and the best chemistry I've seen between Eli/Maggie.

Why can't Eli and Maggie be together? God's will? Writer's plot? That's sad. Actually I like Grace too, so who know's how it would turn out eventually. And fantastic acting by Katie Holmes, very memorable guest appearance (Sigourney Weaver too).

Taylor/Matt Dowd plot was great, even Maggie/New Boyfriend scenes were great. Eli/Nate relationship was good too...actually the whole show is superb in my opinion.

Good character development,especially Taylor, Maggie, Matt.

Anyway, as a season ender, it was a great ending. As a series ending, a great ending too. No loose tails, happy ending. Now we only have to wonder what happens to Eli/Maggie/Grace.

The End.

It's been awhile

2009-12-21T23:04:00.003+08:00

It's been awhile since....

...

...I read scientific journals or prepared for my master's project(6 days)
...I celebrated my birthday with my friends (6 days)
...I updated this blog (11 days)
...I last watched a movie at the cinema (12 days)
...I went swimming (almost 2 weeks)
...I pulled weights and did sit-ups(1 month?)
...I had fun playing Mafia wars, Farmville, Kingdom Wars, Happy Aquarium etc (1 month)
...I put on 2kg and stopped putting on more weight (2 months)
...I cooked dinner/lunch/nyonya food (2-3 months?)
...I studied Chinese (2-3 months?)
...I last logged on to Marcoland, my favourite online game which died (5-6 months?)
...I last played DOTA (7-8 months)
...I played a new computer game (1-2 years?)
...I bought a new fantasy fiction book which I've enjoyed (>2 years)
...I last "chiak eee" (7 years?)

and I'm proud to say...
...I last read the bible (2 days)
...I last went to church (4 days)
...I last had communion (8 days)
...I last bathed (5 hours)

...and today is Dec 21 2009, so we have exactly 3 years more to live. 3 years is a long time, and you can accomplish many things in 3 years. The last 3 years have been the best 3 years of my life. Making friends, new experiences, coming out of my comfort zone a little, maturing, and doing things out of the ordinary. And I thank the Lord, my family, friends, and relatives.

Forgive me

2009-12-10T23:53:00.004+08:00

1. Forgive me Lord, for I have sinned.

2. Please forgive my sins as I forgive those who sin against me.

I always forgive, but at the same time, life is a hard teacher. Hence, it is hard to forget. Living turns us hard. We become wary of others. Learn not to trust so easily, learn not to give so easily, learn not to love so easily. That is one of the failings of growing up. I long to live in a perfect world, can we make this world a perfect place?

Perhaps the answer is a new begining? Or would history just repeat itself? Only under perfect conditions with no limiting factors could perfection be obtained.

In the begining, God created a perfect world. But he made man, and man unfortunately was not perfect. If not for man, created in His image, the world would be a perfect place! So why did God create man who is imperfect and prone to make errors? Did God make a mistake? Is God imperfect? (Please forgive me Lord for thinking this.) What is God's true purpose in creating imperfect beings?

Why create humans who are not perfect? Why not create perfect humans right from the begining, to live in the perfect world? Then everything would be perfect.

But what is perfection actually? To be continued.

You'd better run

2009-12-01T00:29:00.001+08:00

Lest I corrupt you. you have been warned.

It sux.

2009-11-30T23:57:00.002+08:00

It sux that the most important thing I look forward to these few days is playing Castle Age. What a life I have. But don't get me wrong, I do feel rather happy...just content with my slothish lifestyle. If I had a conscience, I should be feeling REALLY bad wasting my time, but I think my conscience has slowly melted away...leaving me...empty.

I I I I I I

2009-11-30T23:46:00.004+08:00

Life is always about:

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That pretty much sucks.

Prelude to the End

2009-11-30T23:34:00.003+08:00

Prelude to the End.

Today is the 30th of November 2009. Tomorrow is the 1st of December. If the world were to end in December 2012, we would have 3 years left to live. It wouldn’t be that bad. Finally an end to all the suffering going on in this world.

Why does man have to suffer? All the suffering happening EVERYWHERE in the world. Unhappiness. Physical pain. Hunger. Illness. Relationship troubles. Break-ups. Falling in love with someone who can’t return your love. Cheating on your wife. Lying to your best friend. Having to do something you don’t like to do. Working 8-5, burned out after work. Getting fired. Not knowing what to do. Even being bored out of your mind is suffering. I hate the phrase “No pain no gain.” WHY MUST THERE BE PAIN!!! Something is wrong... WHY Should there be pain?

Why do some people have to starve? Yet most of us are unsatisfied with the food we are blessed to eat. We always want to eat nicer food. Sushi King, Seafood, Suckling Pig, Peking Duck, Nasi Ayam Penyet. I guess once in a while if we can afford it, we feel we “deserve” a treat. Anyway, life is so unfair. They have nothing to eat, while we are unsatisfied with what we have to eat. I always complain about the food even when I KNOW I shouldn’t complain. WHY does this happen??

Worse still. Some people work so hard to earn a living, just to survive. To carve out their basic existence. And yet some of us just “enjoy” playing meaningless Facebook games. Chatting on MSN for hours (Not me). Pointless activities if you actually think about it. Seems like a worthless existence. Won’t matter much if the end of the world really came. Blogging. Haha.

I think one of the purposes of man on earth is to be happy, to enjoy his existence, doing good things. We don’t need all the technology and advancement we have now to be happy. I feel it would be nice to live in a period long gone, in a farming community, self supporting, everybody simple, yet happy. In a utopia where evil didn’t exist. I think humans are born with a clean slate and it is our life experiences that turns us evil. I don’t think humans are born the “selfish creatures” that we are now. Maybe we need to have a restart, a clean slate.

In conclusion, I think that not existing may be better than existing in a world full of suffering. But I’m still young, my thoughts change often. Who knows...

I originally wanted to blog about now is December, the END of my holidays. Time to get off my ass. SERIOUSLY. But 2012 is pretty good too. Haha. Anyway, I will try my best to make life more meaningful, and try to ease the suffering of others as much as possible. I hope I can do it! Be a better person….TIME TO REPENT. Be a better Christian! Or Buddhist if you are one…Or Muslim…Jewish. Taoist. Hindu. Scientologist?

Another week

2009-11-16T16:51:00.002+08:00

Another week goes by. I am still at home. Doing nothing in particular. Wasting time, enjoying my slothful existence. Time passes so fast during the holidays, week after week. Over just like that. The slothful existence is a disease, making me go back to my old habits, lazy, anti-social, cowardly, anything else terrible.

I still don't know what to do with my future, but my free time is coming to an end. End of November is the new deadline, postponed from end of October. Now I have to get off my ass and do something useful. Almost all my friends are now working, studying, or at least doing something useful. Haha, it's funny because people think that the 4.0 should do greater things than what I am doing. I'm so lazy I haven't updated my blog in a long while. Sorry...!!

Movies I have watched...

2009-10-17T13:59:00.015+08:00

Well, I should record this down too!

Well, it started with Bolt and Dark Knight last year/last last year?. Then I went to the cinema much more often after that...

Dark Knight 9/10 <-- I think it was really good?
Pandorum 9/10 <--It was very good! But scary like shit!!!
Bolt 8.5/10 <-- Made me like watching movies in cinema. Quite touching…
Angels and Demons 8.5/10 <-- Quite good!!
Star Trek 8.5/10 <-- Quite good, but I couldn't enjoy the full experience bcoz badly had to pee.
GI Joe: The rise of Cobra 8.5/10 <--I like the bad guys...hahaa
Percy Jackson & The Olympians:The lightning Thief 8.5 <--One of the better movies to be released. Fun to watch throughout the show,great cast with great acting especially the main three.
Ice Age 3 8.5/10 <-- I like the sabertooth squirrel
Prince of Persia: The Sands of Time 8.25/10 <-- The lame attempts at humour and Dastons mumbling kinda reduced the score of this otherwise good movie. Didn't like some of the dialogue lines between Daston and Tamina as well....but good storyline, fight scenes, nice scenery, great cast and good happy ending.
2012 8.25/10 <-- Plot had too much coincidence...and really unbelievable, but otherwise entertaining and fun to watch!
The Book of Eli 8.25 <- Nothing much really stands out, but overall quite a good solid movie that is entertaining and has a different feel.
Inception 8.25 <- Nice concept, fast paced and good to watch, but could have been improved. Lacking something....
Invictus 8.25 <- The starting was dull (focusing more on Nelson Mandela), but towards the end, the movie really picked up (focusing more on the Rugby matches and Matt Damon). There were several great scenes in the movie such as the rugby match in the rain, and was surprised by Matt Damon's great acting towards the end of the movie. Really interesting how sports can unite a nation. What's amazing is this is based on a true story...and how remarkable the likeness between Nelson Mandela and Morgan Freeman. Oh...and it reminded me of District 9 due to the South Africa setting.
Avatar in 3D 8.25 <-- Entertaining, fun to watch, and GREAT graphics, but otherwise lousy (terrible) plot, and not that great a cast (except sigourney weaver). Even less suspense than 2012...remake of Pocahantas with an expensive budget.
Robin Hood 8.25 <-- Everything was so smooth and I have no complaints at all. But this movie is not very memorable. Entertaining and well made, but nothing really stood out except Prince John and his French Queen.
Terminator Salvation 8.25/10 <--I didn't follow the terminator series but still liked this
Daybreakers 8.25/10 <--Quite good to watch with several memorable scenes, was surprised by the brutal ending. Great concept, but a little bit "unbelievable" how the blood supply dwindles so fast in just a few days when the epidemic has been going on for 10 years!
G-Force 8/10 <--The mice were tooo cute, but the mole was kinda disgusting to see.
Surrogates 8/10 <-- Don't really like the too simple plot, but otherwise great concept.
Gamer 8/10 <--Love the concept of "society" but otherwise nothing amazing
I love you, Beth Cooper 8/10 <-- Not bad for a chick flick. Kinda meaningful
Wall Street Money Never Sleeps 8/10 <-- I don't really enjoy non-action movies, but this was okay. Good cast and nice twist.
District 9 8/10 <-- This show is strange.
Madagascar 3 8/10 <-- Okay okay lar
Astroboy 7.75 <-- Fun to watch, otherwise nothing much
Up 7.5/10 <-- Cast was too small, not interesting enough
Alvin & The Chipmunks: The Squeakuel 7.5 <--entertaining but nothing else
Money is not enough 2 7.5/10 <-- First time watching hockien movie in cinema
Monsters Vs. Aliens 7.5/10 <-- Nothing to shout about
Aliens in the Attic 7.5/10 <-- Not bad
Transformers: revenge of the fallen 7/10 <--The loud-mouth mother really annoyed me.
The final Destination 7/10 <--Kinda sux
Legion 6.5<--It was really disappointing mainly because of the action scenes. The plot kinda sucked when they could have done so much more. The concept of God losing hope for humanity is a great concept. The cast is rather good too...but the shooting/editing making of the film really brought everything down. Hoping for a remake.
Clash of the Titans 6/10 <-- Sam Worthington sucks. Action scenes and plot sucked. Didn't enjoy this at all, not even fun to watch.
Blood: The last Vampire 5/10 <--This sucks, really, and not because she's a vampire

Movies I watched on DVD: (Lower score because not watched in cinema)

The Other Boleyn Girl<--8 I liked this, especially Natalie Portman. Natalie Portman outshines Scarlett Johannson...
Elizabeth: The Golden Age <--7.5 Nothing that spectacular but a bit disappointed with the portrayal of Philip II. He was a great man, but portrayed as a weak lunatic.
The Curious case of benjamin button <--7.5 A bit too long, a bit unrealistic but rather good...Impressed by Queenie. Impressed by the elderly Benjamin (old looking, young age). Impressed by Tilda Swinton. Didn't really like Cate Blanchett in this movie...
Hurt Locker <--8 Impressed by the main actor and his relationship with Beckham and Eldridge. Impressed by Beckham! Not much suspence as it's quite predictable which bombs would blow (I knew the poor Doc would die) and which wouldn't, but otherwise still fun to watch. Low visual quality towards the end spoiled the movie a bit. Caution: Bad language in this film is addictive. Makes me want to use the F word...haha.
Cirque du Freak: The Vampire's Assistant 5 <--worst movie to date? Monkey girl is the only thing slightly good about this movie.
The Road 6.5 <--Too slow and boring.

Great movies (Score >9) I watched on TV :
Kingdom of Heaven
Alexander
Underworld 2
The Day After Tomorrow

Movies I want to watch:

Movies I wanted to watch but missed:
1. Twilight
2. Orphan
3. I love you, man
4. Street Fighter: The legend of Chun Li
5. Whiteout <- Bad reviews deterred me
6. New Moon <-I guess bcoz I didn't watch twilight, I didn't want to watch the sequel before the prequel.
7. A Christmas Carol <- Didn't look that good
8. Imaginarium of Dr Parnasus
9. Solomon Kane
10. Shutter Island
11. Sorcerer's Apprentice
12. The last airbender

Great TV series

2009-09-29T00:30:00.010+08:00

I want to list them out, so that I can remember them in the future!

5-6: Red
7-8: Green
9-10: Blue

Popular: I REALLY liked this. The cliffhanger ending was terrible since the show was not continued : (9/10)
Now and Again: Great show on TV2, BAD sucky ending as the show was cancelled. (7.9/10)
Blood Ties: Great show, quite recent but not renewed... :( (7.9/10)
Missing: I remember liking it, but didn't watch it *that* regularly. (6/10)
Farscape: No proper ending. Shit. It sux that (9/10)
Babylon 5: The best Sci Fi EVER. (9.8/10)
Mythquest: Another GREAT TV2 show. (8.5/10)
Dark Knight: About Ivanhoe, this series was the best! (9/10)
Xena: GREAT show. (8.99/10)
Hercules: Not quite as great as Xena, but still great. (8.0/10)
Young Hercules: Kinda good. (7.5/10)
Stargate SG1: The second best Sci Fi. Love the mythology aspect. Unfortunately local tv stations never showed the later seasons. (9/10)
Charmed: THE BEST? Idiot NTV7 never showed the later seasons. (9.9/10)
Merlin: Great! One of the better new shows. (8.5/10)
Smallville: I'm not a big fan, but nowadays, nothing better is on tv (7.9/10)
Eli Stone: Pretty good...! (8.0/10)
Ally McBeal: I used to love this show. (8.5/10)
Grey's anatomy: One of my most Favourite shows of all time. (9.9/10)
Dark Angel: Can barely remember it, but stared Jessica Alba! (5.5/10)
Cleopatra 2525: Wacky show...totally different from others. (6/10)
Gilmore Girls: !!! I like Paris most of all... (9.5/10)
Beastmaster: This was one of my favourite, especially Tao...and the sorceress!
(9/10)
Numbers: I enjoyed this!! (8/10)
Supernatural: BETTER than smallville! (8/10)
The 4400: GREAT, but wasn't shown on TV anymore :( (8.9/10)
Kyle XY: I only started watching it recently. Like Jessie and Andy. (8/10)
Alias: My bro and mum liked this show. (7/10)
Felicity: I watched it when i was too bored. Tuesday's on TV2. Not DAT great though. (5.5/10)
Earth Final Conflict: I LOVED this, especially the song! (8.5/10)
Mutant X: I liked it, not THAT much though. (7.9/10)
First Wave: How could I forget! This is like the BEST. Together with Charmed and Grey's anatomy and survivor. (9.8/10)
Third Watch: Occassionally watched this, but not really a big fan. (6.9/10)
Tru Calling: Quite nice (6/10)
Relic Hunter: One of the best shows! (9/10)
Guinevere Jones: I did watch it, not *dat* great though. (5/10)
24: I hated this in the past, only started to watch it now (Season 7?) Hate Bauer but like agent Moss n Walker...Janice, Chloe n the rest...Pity Larry died. (5.5/10)

No Rating. I was too young to really remember these shows. But my fav is spellbinder.
Sliders: Great show, but I can barely remember it.
Oceangirl: Erm...GREAT!
Lois & Clark the new adventures of superman: My sis liked this. BETTER than smallville!
Robin Hood: I can barely remember this show. But i know it existed...
Spellbinder: GREAT!!! Can you remember Spellbinder Ashkah? I can... and those energy balls!
X-files: I liked this, but it was pretty scary most of the time.
Conan The Adventurer : I can vaguely remember this, but it was good.

Reality:
The Mole: This was GREAT! (9.5/10)
Manhunt: A show about people being hunted...haha. Not bad. (5.5/10)
Survivor: I wish it were still shown. Damn NTV7! This is the BEST reality tv series ever. (9.9/10)
The Amazing Race: Quite good, but can't compete with survivor. (8.5/10)
Hell's Kitchen: It was damn good hearing Gordon Ramsay curse. (8.0/10)
Ironchef: Good show. (8/10)
The Apprentice: This was good! Love the backstabbing and conflicts. (9.0/10)
She's Got The Look: Search for mature model...pretty good (8/10)
Shear Genius: Hairstyling Reality, pretty good (7.5/10)

Damn! I know I forgot so many of them, and that's why I'm writing this. Will try to recall more later. I will rank them too!

Here are some shows that are very famous which i didn't get to watch OR I didn't like.

Heroes
House
Lost
Scrubs
ER
The Practice
CSI (all 3 versions)

Katy Perry vs. Lady Gaga Part 2

2009-09-29T00:13:00.005+08:00

The battle continues with both singers having new singles released on radio...

Katy Perry's "Waking up in Vegas" took a while for me to start liking, and even then it was just "good", nothing to shout about. On the other hand, Lady Gaga had "Disco Stick/Love Game" which I instantly liked. "I wanna take a ride on your disco stick" sounds really dirty. Haha. Well, I still prefer Katy who has a unique voice, good looks and an interesting background(Pastor's kid??). Lady Gaga on the other hand seems as artificial as the synthesized sounds in her songs. But "Love game" is really pretty good. Oh yeah, Lady Gaga also released a bunch of new songs that show her versatility...hmm. Oh well, I've gotta admit that for now, Lady Gaga=1 and Katy Perry=0. Hopefully it's just temporary.

Here's a vid if you're too free!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1zFOKRJFIqo

Sorry, only the link since it will cause my blog to slow down if I embed it.

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9 February 2012

Katy Perry vs. Lady Gaga Part 3!

The battle continues between these two super stars! Katy Perry seems to be leading this time, with a positive image (despite her recent divorce) and good music, where as Gaga seems to be more and more wacky, walking a fine line between creativity and plain madness. Music wise, Katy Perry has the epic hits ET, FIREWORK! and TGIF,and the one which I dont really like, "The one that got away". Lady Gaga responds with the trend breaking Born this Way, the marvellous Edge of Glory, the super catchy You and I, sung by her male alter ego, and the one which I don't really like, "Marry the night". Music wise, Gaga seems to be leading, but Katy is not far behind. Overall though, let's call it a draw. Gaga=1, Katy=1. :)

Mysteries of the Universe (To be Cont.)

2009-09-25T14:02:00.004+08:00

Part 1: The Universe

I know the universe is REALLY huge, but my problem is, what is outside the universe? How can anything be endless? No matter how big he universe is, it must have an end! Try picturing the universe in your head. Maybe you picture the universe as a REALLY large box. But what is outside that box? Imagine the universe expanding in every direction, larger and larger, but yet, there MUST be an end to it. No matter how large the universe is, it will have a boundary. But what is beyond that boundary! Even if it is just empty space, vacuum, it is still something. But again, that vacuum/empty space can't go on forever! It will have another boundary again. I am incapable of imagining a universe which size is infinite...

I think that we are only able to picture something that is finite. Perhaps the human brain is unable to handle infinity. Perhaps our brains are too "fragile" and perhaps we cannot even begin to grasp the "real truth" which may be totally out of our mind's capacity to imagine.

What do you think?

Part 2: Time
This one is no less intriguing. We sometimes hear the phrase "At the begining of time". The "begining of time" could refer to the creation of the universe, or any other event, not necessarily marking the begining of the universe. Rather, I think it should refer to the first point of existence. The begining of time is when the first entity/being/world/universe first existed. Let's say it was the existence of vaccuum in space, before the creation of the universe. But what about BEFORE the vaccuum was there? Something must have existed before that vast vaccuum filled space. in that case, that "something's" existence should mark the begining of time. But yet, "something else" surely preceeded the "something". And it goes on. So was there really a begining? FOREVER seems like a more appropriate word. But how can something be forever (Which means it existed "since the begining of time"), if the "begining of time" doesn't even exist?

Okay, let's say, at the begining of time, time=0 or let's say 1 billion trillion years ago. So -1 would be before the begining of time or 1 billion trillion billion years MINUS 1 year. In that case, "1 billion trillion MINUS 1" should be the begining of time! I guess the begining of time doesn't exist...or my puny brain can't comprehend it. Prove me wrong will ya...

Long time no updates,

2009-09-23T17:47:00.000+08:00

Well, if you're wandering (Wondering, i mean), I am still alive. I didn't die. Haha. I even graduated already!

Actually it has only been 4 months since my last post, but to me, it feels like a hell of a long time. So much has happened, and I can't even remember when I last updated my blog. I have graduated from university and all the labwork madness and emotional imbalance is gone. I'm having a nice long holiday at home before I continue my masters (Here I am looking for more labwork madness!!).

Anyway, it's really nice to be on a long holiday where you don't have ANY responsibilities. Basically, I can do anything that I want to do. How fun :)

But my life is still pretty boring...but i enjoy it that way. Anyway, going out this evening to visit two old school fiends for Hari Raya.

Will write more later. I promise. haha, I can promise what I want, but I can also break a promise if I want to. Don't base your life on another person's promise because that is just dumb.

Tata.

Meaningful song...

2009-05-17T01:06:00.000+08:00

I like this line... "You know that I love you so, I love you enough to let you go"

Already Gone by Kelly Clarkson.
Lyrics from: http://www.elyrics.net/read/k/kelly-clarkson-lyrics/already-gone-lyrics.html

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

Even with our fists held high
It never would've worked out right
We were never meant for do or die

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hold you, now I can't stop

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you want to cry

Started with a perfect kiss then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so, I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone

Already gone, already gone, already gone
Already gone, already gone, already gone, yeah

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone

If my mind keeps thinking I've had enough, but my heart keeps telling me don't give up, what do i do?

2009-05-06T19:50:00.000+08:00

This is a great song. Very inspirational.
Should I trust the heart? Or the brain? hmm...

The heart is stronger than you think
It's like it can go through anything
And even when you think it can't it finds a way to still push on, though

Sometimes you want to run away
Ain't got the patience for the pain
And if you don't believe it look into
your heart the beat goes on

I'm tellin' you that
Things get better
Through whatever
If you fall, dust it off, don't let up
Don't you know you can go be your own miracle
You need to know

CHORUS
If the mind keeps thinking you've had enough
But the heart keeps telling you don't give up
Who are we to be
questioning, wondering what is what
Don't give up
THROUGH IT ALL, JUST STAND UP!

It's like we all have better days
Problems getting all up in your face
Just because you go through it
Don't mean it got to take control, no
You ain't gotta find no hiding place
Because the heart can beat the hate
Don't wanna let your mind keep playin' you
And sayin' you can't go on

I'm tellin' you that
Things get better
Through whatever
If you fall
Dust if off, don't let up
Don't you know you
Can go
Be your own
Miracle
You need to know

CHORUS

You don't gotta be a prisoner in your mind
If you fall, dust it off
You can live your life

Yeah
Let your heart be your guide
Yeah yeah yeah
And you will know that you're good if you trust in the good
Everything will be alright, yeah
Light up the dark, if you follow your heart
And it will get better
Through whatever

CHORUS

You got it in you, find it within
You got it in now, find it within now
You got it in you, find it within
You got it in now, find it within now
You got it in you, find it within
You got it in now, find it within now
Find it within you, find it within
THROUGH IT ALL, JUST STAND UP!!

Favourite songs...

2009-05-06T19:06:00.021+08:00

I have a little free time today...Let me list down some of my favourite songs so i don't ever forget the songs that i have liked.

In no particular order:

Fall to pieces (Avril)
Complicated (Avril)
Girlfriend (Avril)
Skaterboy (Avril)
Stand up (Various artists)
Take a bow (Rihanna)
Disturbia (Rihanna)
Unwritten (Natasha Bedingfield)
Love Like This(Natasha Bedingfield)
Pocket Full Or Sunshine(Natasha Bedingfield)
If you're not the one (Daniel Bedingfield)
I'm gonna get through this(Daniel Bedingfield)
I don't want you back(Eamon)
Umbrella (Marie Digby)
Say it again (Marie digby)
Bubbly (Colbie)
Realise (Colbie)
Love story (Taylor Swift)
Fifteen (Taylor swift)
Teardrops on my guitar (Taylor swift)
Torn (Natalie Imburglia)
Promiscuos (Nelly Furtado)
I'm like a bird (Nelly Furtado)
Maneater (Nelly Furtado)
Scream (Timbaland and others)
The Way I are (Timbaland and others)
Apologize (One Republic)
Stop and Stare (One Republic)
Breakaway(Kelly Clarkson)
A moment like this (Kelly Clarkson)
Because of you(Kelly Clarkson)
Behind these hazel eyes(Kelly Clarkson)
Sober(Kelly Clarkson)
Everywhere (Michelle Branch)
Crazy in Love (Beyonce)
If I were a boy (Beyonce)
Irreplacable (Beyonce)
Survivor (Destiny's child)
Stand up for love (Destiny's child)
With you (Chris brown)
The Remedy (Jason Mraz)
I'm Yours (Jason Mraz)
You and I both (Jason Mraz)
The geek in the pink (Jason Mraz)
Everything (Micheal Buble)
Home (Westlife)
Something right (Westlife)
7 things I hate about (Miley Cyrus)
See you again (Miley Cyrus)
Geenie in a bottle (Christina)
Candyman (Christina)
Who knew(Pink)
Please Don't leave me (Pink)
For you i will (Teddy Geiger)
Collide (Howie Day)
She Says (Howie Day)
I will always love you (Whitney Houston)
Hey ya (Outkast)
Where is the love (Black eye peas)
Don't phunk with my heart (BEP)
Don't lie (BEP)
I got a feeling (BEP)
Big Girls don't cry(Fergie)
Glamorous (Fergie)
100 years (Five for fighting)
The riddle (five for fighting)
superman (five for fighting)
yellow (coldplay)
the scientist (coldplay)
Fix you (coldplay)
Viva La vida (coldplay)
Spotlight (jeniffer hudson)
If this isn't love (jeniffer hudson)
all american girl (carrie underwood)
before he cheats (carrie underwood)
Some hearts (carrie underwood)
Angels (Jessica simpson)
take my breath away (jessica simpson)
A little too not over you (Archuleta)
Crush (Archuleta)
Invisible (clay aiken)
escape (enrique iglesias)
Thinking of you (katy perry)
hot n cold (kate perry)
piece of me (Britney spears)
Sometimes (Britney spears)
whenever wherever (shakira)
That's what you get (paramore)
Baby love (Nicole Scherzinger)
T-Shirt (Shontelle)
Tattoo (Jordin Sparks)
One step at a time (jordin sparks)
No air (Jordin Sparks, Chris Brown)
How do you sleep (Jesse McCartney)
I'm leavin (Jesse McCartney)
Bleeding love (Leona lewis)
Better in time (leona lewis)
Break even (The Script)
The man who can't be moved (The script)
How to save a life (the fray)
This i promise you (N'Sync)
Summertime (Newkids on the block)
Truly Madly Deeply(Savage Garden)
To the moon and Back(Savage Garden)
Crash n Burn(Savage Garden)
I knew I loved you(Savage Garden)
Big yellow taxi (Counting crows)
1000 miles (vanessa carlton)
Thank you (dido)
white flag (dido)
sing (travis)
When you say nothing at all (Ronan keating)
follow me (uncle cracker)
Mr. Brightside (The killers)
Human (The killers)
I'm not missing you (stacie orrico)
stuck (stacie orrico)
more to life (stacie orrico)
murder on the dance floor (sophie ellis baxter)
say what you want (Texas)
About you now (sugarbabes)
The tide is high (atomic kitten)
I never had a dream come true (S club 7)
What's going on (Lana wolf)
Fastcars (Tracy Chapman)
Fire (??)
I'll be missing you (Puff Daddy n Faith Evans)
Dangerous (Roxette)
She's got the look (Roxette)
Bottle it up (Sarah Barailles)
Love Song (Sarah Barailles)
I wanna be with you (Mandy Moore)
4ever (The Veronicas)
When it falls apart (The veronicas)

I know you want me (Pitbull)
Knocks you down (Kerry Hilson, Neyo, Kanye West)
Falling for you (Colbie Caillat)
Party in the USA (Miley Cyrus)
Tick Tock(Kesha)
21 Guns (Greenday)
All the right things (One Republic)
I see you (Leona Lewis)
Sweet Dreams (Beyonce)
Paparazzi (Lady Gaga)
Body Language (Jesse McCartney)
Avalanche (Marie Digby)
These Hard Times (Matchbox twenty)
According to you (Orianthi)
Two is better than one (Boys Like Girls/Taylor Swift)
Come clean (Hillary Duff)
Baby When You're Gone (Bryan Adams + Melanie C.)
Follow You Down (Gin BLossoms)
Breakfast at Tiffany's (Deep blue something)
Obsession (Frankie J. feat. Baby Bash)
Happy Ending (Mika)
Landslide (Dixie Chicks)
Buses and Trains (Bachelor Girl)
How do you do (Roxette)
Alice (Avril Lavigne)
Heaven (DJ Sammy)
Sweetest Girl (Wyclef Jean, Naiia)
Scar (Allison Iraheta)
Baby (Justin Bieber)
Gypsy (Shakira)
Waka Waka (Shakira)
Dance with My Father (Luther Vandross)
The Only Exception (Paramore)
Kissin You (Mirana Cosgrove)
Eenie Meenie (Justin Bieber, Sean Kingston)
Waiting for the end (Linkin Park)
2012 (Jay Sean)
Pyramid (Charice)
Love the way you lie (Eminem, Rihanna)
california gurls (Katy perry)
Teenage dreams (katy perry)
As we enter (Nas & Damian)
Airplanes (Bruno Mars)
Fight for this love (cheryl cole)
Do you remember(jay sean, sean paul, lil jon)

These are the songs as the top of my mind...I CAN'T BELIEVE that i actually forgot all the rest and even had trouble recalling most of these songs....such bad memory :(

I just wanna sit and stare at you.

2009-04-01T20:01:00.000+08:00

I like this song... I always play this song when I'm alone at lab. :)

Fall to Pieces Lyrics
Artist(Band):Avril Lavigne

I looked away
then I look back at you,
You tryed' to say
the things that you can't undo,
If I had my way
I'd never get over you,
Today's the day
I pray that we make it through.

Make it through the fall,
Make it through it all.

And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just wanna sit and stare at you.
I don't wanna talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just wanna cry in front of you.
I don't wanna talk about it
'Cause I'm in love with you.

You're the only one
I'd be with till the end.
When I come undone
you bring me back again.
Back under the stars,
Back into your arms.

And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just wanna sit and stare at you.
I don't wanna talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just wanna cry in front of you.
I don't wanna talk about it
'Cause I'm in love with you.

Wanna know who you are,
Wanna know where to start,
I wanna know what this means.

Wanna know how you feel,
Wanna know what is real.
I wanna know everything Everything!

I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just wanna sit and stare at you.
I don't wanna talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just wanna cry in front of you.
I don't wanna talk about it.

And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just wanna sit and stare at you.
I don't wanna talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just wanna cry in front of you.
and I don't wanna talk about it
'Cause I'm in love with you.
I'm in love with you,
'Cause I'm in love with you.
I'm in love with you,
I'm in love with you.

www.sing365.com/music/lyric.nsf/Fall-to-Pieces-lyrics-Avril-Lavigne/FB0494D7F859528748256E8B00073F75

Music and me...

2009-03-01T23:35:00.000+08:00

Today I studied music. All the notes (called taugeh by some) are giving me a feeling of "disorientation" or "blur" or "mind too active". Haha. Maybe it's because of staring at the pc too long...trying to play music on my mini-keyboard from music sheets on the pc-screen. At least now I can recognise the bass clef notes, although it still takes me some time. Treble clef is slightly easier since I have done it since primary school music class. Yeah, all cows eat grass and good boys do fine always :)

Yes, every good boy does fine!! And my FACe is so handsome :) Haha.

Anyway, I should sleep soon. Tomorrow is another 6.30am day... Goodnite.. bye bye. *kiss-kiss*

Fify for OIAM!

2009-02-28T22:44:00.000+08:00

I support Fify for OIAM!! :D

I like the way she sings... especially the climax for tak tercapai akalmu in the top 11 show :)

She gives me "shivers" :)

Katy Perry Vs Lady Gaga

2009-02-25T20:39:00.000+08:00

And the winner is Katy Perry!!

Both have new songs out... "Thinking of You" by Katy Perry which sounds a bit like it's sung by Alanis Morisette. Lady Gaga has a new song too, "Pokerface" which sounds quite good, but I only like the chorus.

Listening to Thinking of you now... and can't really write because I have to edit and cut down about 15 pages into 10!! Oh dear...haha/

Things to remember...

2009-02-24T21:20:00.001+08:00

*Remember not to badmouth people*

because:

"Badmouthing is a form of basic, carnivorous, competitive behaviour. The Aspie mind has evolved beyond this basic competitiveness." said by Bario in AFF forum...

I find myself...

2009-02-24T20:21:00.000+08:00

I found myself having nothing to do at home when I come back from lab today... I reached home before 4pm and I had nothing to do. Felt a bit tired, so climbed into bed; didn't really sleep but it was nice to just laze around anyway(Perhaps it was because i slept before 9pm the previous night).

I do have an unfinished assginment, but I'm rather lazy to do it... but the point is, I think I've been spending way too much time at lab that it has become my life now. Uni used to be my life, now it's lab.

Haven't done anything useful since i came back...haha. Better start my assignment now, have a meeting tomorrow at 9. Bye...goodnite :)

Another day...

2009-02-22T18:03:00.000+08:00

Time passses too fast... it's already the 22nd of February!!

Bad news because that means I may not finish my Final Year Project on time...and also because we will all be graduating. I'd rather stay at this stage of life forever! (I think lah)

Fragility...

2009-02-21T23:06:00.001+08:00

Feelings and mood are so easy to change... one moment i am happy, the next i am not... :(

anyway, it's 11:06 and I really need to sleep now! Going to have a full day at Uni 2moro...bye. Goodnite :D

David Archuleta vs Jesse McCartney...

2009-02-21T14:21:00.000+08:00

Who do you prefer??

I think these two guys can be compared to each other. Why? Well, they are young singers... although Jesse McCartney has much more experience than David Archuleta...but anyway, the reason I am comparing them is because it seems their songs always are released around the same time.

First, it was Archuleta's Crush vs Jesse's I'm leaving and It's over.
Now, it's Archuleta's A little too not over you vs Jesse's How do you sleep.

I find that Jesse's songs are more catchy and I like them immediately, where as Archuleta's songs take time for me to like them... But I don't get fed-up of both their songs.

But in the end,I prefer Archuleta, because he has a nicer name :)

Why did I blog about this?? Well, there is a song just released that I am looking for, but can't find it because I don't even know the singer/song name :(

Oh no!!

2009-02-16T23:47:00.000+08:00

I think I'll sleep at 11:55 pm lah... :(

Oh no!!

2009-02-16T22:25:00.001+08:00

10:25pm and I still have lots to do... :(

I think I'll sleep at 11pm lah...

Doing assignment now...

2009-02-16T20:52:00.000+08:00

Yes, that's what I'm doing. I will do it till 10pm or 1030 pm. Now is almost 9pm. Then I will sleep. That's because I need to wake up at 645 am tomorrow so that I can reach lab by 8am. Then I hope to run a gel (hopefully I'm the first to arrive). Then after that I'll be going out with my friend to buy some stuff. After that, at about 1pm I have a group meeting... meeting "Arnold" first. Then meeting the rest of the group at 2pm. Poor me. See the sacrifice I make as group leader?? Yeah... so anyway, if ur reading this crap, you're to free. Because I'm just wasting time. I haven't done assignments in such a long time and have totally lost touch... Havent gotten any really good journals or anything. Haven't cited anything. Haven't really done anything. Well, at least I'm the group leader...hehe... no one is gonna say... "So Nik, what did u do?"

Hehe... that's why it's so good to be the group leader. Hehe. :D

But don't get me wrong lah... I will do my work lah!!! Ish...

An early bird...

2009-02-15T10:04:00.000+08:00

I always wake up late on Sundays (at least past 11pm), but this week, I woke up at about 9am and i feel totally refreshed! Well, to be fair, I was exhausted last night and slept early...about 10pm. So that's more than 8 hours of beauty sleep! The toothache I had last night was gone too when i woke up. I suspect it's a wisdom tooth trying to breakthrough.... it would be my second wisdom tooth.

Anyway, going to the lab after my mum comes home (she's using the car) and we have brunch. Today we have a cleaning session at lab, and I also need to subculture some bacteria.

This would be my first 7 day lab week...! Oh yeah, my supervisor came to lab yesterday (Saturday) and it was nice to have him visit.

Lastly, I think i'm focusing to much on my Final Year Project and neglecting some of my other duties such as assignments!! Oh dear............. need to pick up the slack!

I had to change the template..

2009-02-11T22:19:00.000+08:00

Since my lolcats didn't display properly...the main blog content area width was too small... this template sux, but I'm too lazy to find a better one now...

Awww....

2009-02-11T22:13:00.000+08:00

"I waited all night for you..."

more animals

Funny...

2009-02-11T21:33:00.000+08:00

Haha...

more animals

more animals

Make someone feel good about themselves...

2009-02-11T21:03:00.000+08:00

more animals

I have realised something... it's good to make someone feel good about themself! I mean... like asking someone to help you (of coz if they are capable) will make them feel that they are important or "worth something"... :) Hmm... actually, well... i like it when people make me feel good about myself... so thanks if you have made me feel good about myself. But hey, don't be a parasite... that's different.

8-5

2009-02-11T20:57:00.000+08:00

Today I had another 8-5 day at Uni... hmm. 8-5's are really exhausting and for me it's worse; it's 7-6 since I have to drive to Uni. The extra 2 hours are in traffic jams, or napping in my car waiting for the lab to open at 8 (if i arrive early) or doing OT in the lab (If i have OverTime work).

On the other hand, I have "all the comforts of home"... so maybe those hostel students have more right to complain... hmm...well, I guess everything has it's own pro's and con's and most people (including me) like to complain.

Tomorrow is another 7-6 since I have music class in the morning, and I'll be making competent cells and doing transformation after that. There's gonna be an assignment for music class tomorrow and hopefully I can get 5/5 for it! :D

Listening to Fifteen now... i can listen to it over and over again...it's really quite nice :)

Fifteen...

2009-02-11T20:52:00.001+08:00

I really like the song that Taylor Swift and Miley Cyrus sang at the Grammy's... heard it on the radio and then searched for it on youtube.. it's great :) Well, I like it more than the normal version by Taylor Swift alone... I really like Miley Cyrus' voice... and her speaking too :)

The song doesn't relate to me at all, but it's really nice anyway :)

Fifteen.... you can find it on youtube.

"Back then I swore I was gonna marry him someday but I realized some bigger dreams of mine. And Abigail gave everything she had to a boy that changed his mind, and we both cried."
-by Taylor Swift

10 pm

2009-02-10T22:07:00.000+08:00

It's 10:09 pm...

I tried going to sleep at 840+pm or something like that, but it was too bloody hot! And my ass was itching.. I was very sleepy after coming back from lab, but slowly the sleepiness went away... and now I'm not that sleepy... not confident that I would fall asleep...

I think I have been dehydrated too... since after drinking several glasses of water, I only need to pee once!

Ok, I'll attempt to sleep again now...Goodnite

Ah am juz wandrin,

2009-02-07T12:56:00.001+08:00

Does anyone read mah blog? Ah tink dat ah proberbly hav bowt 3 readuhs? Ah am quait cueriuz ah bout dis and ah tink dat i wanna start ah kounteh to kount how maneh vizits to mah blog ah gets.

It's a love story, baby just say yes

2009-02-07T12:36:00.000+08:00

"It's a love story baby just say yes"

It's a lazy Saturday afternoon,
I'm in my room with my laptop on,
I write my blog,
To love song by taylor swift

Just reading blogs, seeing pictures, and facebook,
Not on MSN not invisible
can't say hello
missing you right now,

Wishing that i could be with you right now,
wherever you are whatever you're doing
I wanna do it too, whatever it is I don't care,
and I said,

"Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess,
it's a love story baby just say yes," - Love story by Taylor Swift

Tonight

2009-02-06T23:22:00.000+08:00

Went for dinner at Grandaunt's house (Early Chap Goh Mei)...steamboat...traditional style with prawn balls, fish maw, big cabbage, meat rolls, meat balls, and...chicken stock soup! Quite nice... :)

Came back at 9 something...went online till now. Went facebook, but it's really so slow...I cant even finish adding everyone or see pictures. MSN also seems out? Cant send messages to some people...or maybe they didn't reply me...grrrr...grrr.

What to do now? I think i'm going to sort out some pictures to give my friends. Took many pics with coursemates a few days ago during the Biotech photoshoot.

Then what to do? Sleep kah? Hmm...i already slept 2 hours in the afternoon...dunno wor... (my friend always says dunno wor...haha...kena jangkit)

Anyway, the Jelapang assemblywoman is a traitor!! Maybe she will suicide in the end...too bad for her...Well hopefully she wasn't "forced" lah or else she is the victim :(

The irony

2009-02-03T22:29:00.000+08:00

"Whoever gossips to you will gossip about you."

I hate people gossiping about me, but I like to hear gossip about others. Ironically, I then have trouble trusting that person, thinking they would gossip about me.

Disclaimer: If I trust you a lot, or you are very close to me, this doesn't apply to you! Instead of gossip, it's called "sharing". :)

Hmm...now that I think of it, some people are so kind... "sharing" with people that they are not that close with (i.e. me).

I am unbalanced...

2009-02-03T22:25:00.000+08:00

"I need 8 hours of sleep a day."

I have been feeling really annoyed by someone lately, and I think that it's not even her fault...! I think I am just directing my negative energies....maybe i need an outlet.

Anyway, I am unbalanced; physically, mentally and emotionally. My biological clock has gone mad....maybe this is the cause. I have been having difficulty sleeping for the past few days and am quite tired, nearly lethargic. I've low appetite too :( I was so sleepy just now, but now I am wide awake. That's the worst thing! If only I could be fully awake earlier, and sleepy now...then I could go to sleep easily.

I do need to sleep soon...I've got to do PCR tomorrow by 9am.

Goodnight.

The wrong charity...

2009-02-03T22:06:00.000+08:00

"Unless your heart is limitless, you have to have your heart at the right place."

I feel annoyed everytime there is an advertisement on tv asking us to donate to the Palestinians. What the? Why should we help the Palestinians when there are many of our own people suffering back here? What about the rural or poor kampung folk that have lost their houses and all their belongings in the recent floods? I have not seen a SINGLE advertisement on tv collecting donations for flood victims in Sarawak...which is totally unfair. Apparently, mangsa banjir di Johor atau Kelantan atau Terengganu (correct??) "lebih kasihan" because there were plenty of adverts asking for donations when Johor/kelantan/terengganu was flooded some time back. Anyway, poor S'wakian and Sabahan flood victims... no aid for them. Some people tell me that this is because of a political agenda...?

Sorry, back to the topic. I'm not saying that you can't help the Palestinians. I'm saying that you should help your own people first! There are plenty of people in Malaysia that need help to build better lives. The poor, the sick... there are plenty of us that need your help. So please don't donate to the Palestinians, please help your own people. :)

In conclusion, charity is great, but please have your priorities!

And just so you know, I donate to the poor very rarely :( Maybe I don't have a heart... but I'd prefer to donate if I earn my own money, not what my mum gives me. Hmm... maybe that's just an excuse for not donating..We'll see what happens when i earn my own money...

Coward!!

2009-01-19T23:10:00.001+08:00

"Iraqi shoe thrower to seek Swiss asylum: lawyer"

Dare to do, dare to face the consequences!! Such a coward the "hero" is...

Just a mood...

2009-01-19T22:44:00.000+08:00

My mood is as fickle as a candle flame,
it is temporary,
the feeling,
the happiness I've felt for the past many days,
it's gone now.

Don't get me wrong,
I'm not feeling down,
maybe just a little,
just a little,
but the point is,
it is just a mood,
which can change easily,
just like when the wind blows the flame,
it flickrs (flickers).

So my mood changes easily too...
hah,
that's what you call a moody person?
Or is everyone just the same?

Another muzik muzik post!

2009-01-19T22:13:00.000+08:00

Haha...I saw people blogging about this, and now I want to blog about it too :)

This time around, I haven't been following muzik muzik... didn't even watch the normal episodes or the semi-finals (except youtube)... Used to be quite an addict to this show when I was younger...

So anyway, firstly, I'm glad that Faizal Tahir didn't win the grand prize! Hate (quite a strong word...ok, dislike) that guy... I would have been glad if anyone else won EXCEPT him. However, I have to admit that I quite like that Coba song of his... hmm. But i dislike him lah.... so don't want him to win :)

The Irama Malaysia (ethnik kreatif?) was very disappointing this year... Its always the worst category, but by far it was the worst this year... The winner is not something i would consider as ethnik kreatif... seems like just a normal pop song...with the erhu and fan dance to make it "chinese"... crap. Pop rock was ok...but I don't like pop-rock category usually... (except Destinasi Cinta last year)

Anyway, i didn't have any song in particular that I wanted to win... since most of them were eliminated in the semi-finals (Nubhan...Aizat's other song, Mila):(

But my favourite was Aizat's "Lagu Kita" or "Our song" by Taylor Swift :) But I knew the song was too simple to win lah... but it was nice anyway. It's really amazing too how he can diet until so thin... (i didnt know he was a fat guy last time)

Ziana Zain who i liked when i was young (not anymore) was quite disappointing...I thought hopefully she could redeem herself..but too bad. Ayu was disappointing too. My mum said Heliza's make up was overdone for someone wearing the tudung, but I said that's her style... (not that I know her lah) And Jaclyn Victor was great, and gemilang sounded quite different...!

In the end, it's disappointing that Faizal tahir got VOCAL terbaik since he clearly doesn't have any good vocals... and persembahan terbaik...oh crap! Just lucky he didn't win the grand prize :)

Okie...goodnite!

Such a cold night..

2009-01-15T21:07:00.001+08:00

Tonight is such a cold night... I wanted to bathe, but I couldn't, cos it was too cold...! Anyway, I'm in bed now, with a warm blanket... and the laptop to warm me up :)

There's a really annoying fly buzzing around the room... it's been around since yesterday, really annoying...but i can't seem to find it (to kill it)... it's getting braver now... It even had the audacity to land on my laptop! Pity i couldn't whack it there and then.

Anyway, I was listening to songs on youtube just now, and now I'm chatting on MSN.

Tomorrow I've got class at 10... feel a bit reluctant to go! feel lazy now after a long break...

Dear You,

2009-01-14T00:42:00.000+08:00

Dear You,

I don't really know how to tell you this, but I'll join the monastery. I think I realized it when I changed tennis shoes with George Bush and his wife and I saw you sit on Bill Clinton. I'm sure you're ashamed enough to understand how awful I've felt. I'm returning your ring to you, but I'll keep your suicide note as a memory. You should also know that I told in my confession today about our friendship.

Boo-hoo now, Me.

My excuse!!

2009-01-13T23:18:00.000+08:00

My excuse for skipping lectures, not going to lab, not going online, not updating my blog, not smsing friends, is the FLOOD!!

I am proud...

2009-01-09T22:26:00.000+08:00

I am proud that I managed a five day week of 8am-5pm! Haha... It sounds like I am a total workaholic...but anyway, I still feel it's an accomplishment.

Tomorrow will be the sixth day, but I probably won't work till 5pm.

Anyway, goodnight :)

I will try to sleep early tonight... within half an hour.

Shit!!

2009-01-07T19:04:00.000+08:00

My PCR band is 2.5kb...I need 642bp!! Oh dear, disappointing :(

First times

2009-01-06T20:10:00.001+08:00

First time PCR got band!!

Feeling tired...

2009-01-06T19:58:00.000+08:00

Feeling like going to bed now, but it's only 8pm! I'm afraid if I *try* to go to sleep now, I may end up having imsomnia instead. But I'm tired now...hmm...I feel not soooo tired all of a sudden. Anyway, I need to repay my sleep-debt since last night i was quite restless and didn't get a good night's sleep. Maybe I'll *try* to sleep early today... yeah :)

Today's my second 8-5 day and it's only the SECOND day of uni... I think I like making myself seem busy??? Hmm... maybe. Haha.

And today was quite a mixed day....felt quite "down" in the late morning-noon, probably due to lack of sleep/energy.... but cheered up later after lunch...maybe it was lunch, maybe it was cause my friend came to lab (or maybe my PCR finally had a band-even though it was only a tiny tiny tiny band...haha. ) :)

Anyway, that's my day today. Goodnight :D

Listening to Love Story now...

Final Sem (2009)

2009-01-04T17:10:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow I will officially start my final semester...

I've been lazy, taking many days off. Initially, I had planned to work all through the holidays, but I became too lazy. Human nature :)

So anyway, Year 2009 will be the most important year of my life. After I graduate, I will have to decide what to do next. That will be the most important decision!

Shall I continue my studies in UNIMAS? (72% chance)
Shall I goyang kaki for a year first? (15% chance)
Shall I continue my studies overseas or in semenanjung? (5% chance)
Shall I work in biotech related field? (5% chance)
Shall I work in unrelated field? (2% chance)
Shall I do something else? (1% chance)

I feel like continuing my studies because that is the easiest path. But somehow, now I feel a tug that I should do something else. Maybe start a restaurant? Join a cullinary school? Or even further my studies in semenanjung....? I feel like I want something different, yet I am unwilling to take the step. We'll see what happens when the time comes. :)

Easy to forget...

2009-01-04T16:58:00.000+08:00

I find it's easy to forget sometimes. A few days ago, I was in a bad mood. Medium bad...like thinking "life is not worth living", "What's the point of life?", and so on. But no where near suicidal...or anything that seriouslah.

Anyway, my point is, when you're having a nice time, it's easy to forget the bad times. My friend asked me how I was recently, and I confidently replied good. I forgot that I was "not so good" just a few days ago. I forgot... It's easy to take for granted the nice times you're having... *Thinking about it now. Is this good or bad?*

Well, now I think it's a good thing. There's no point in thinking about the bad things.... maybe it's a human mechanism for coping. If we keep thinking about the bad, how can we enjoy life?

Anyway, I started this post with the intention of saying how easy it is to forget the bad, but I end it by saying it's good that we can forget and put aside the bad, and enjoy what we have in front of us :)

1st times!

2008-12-19T22:16:00.001+08:00

1. It was my birthday last Monday, and for the first time, I celebrated it with friends. Previous years were with my mum only... So thanks a lot to my dear friends :) (First time eating curly fries at McD late at night too)

2. First time playing Warcraft III (Recently). But I haven't played DOTA yet... Thanks a lot to my labmate...! It's a BIG DEAL becoz this game is so popular but I have never EVER even tried it. Thanks Mimie :) Haha.

3. First time getting my mouth swolled due to some kind of allergy. This happened today during dinner. It could be due to the butter prawns (I removed the shell with my mouth) or maybe the salted fish. Or maybe some Chrysantemum tea polluted with chemicals? I am quite sensitive to chemicals.

4. First time heard the song Matahariku by Agnes Monica this week. It's quite good and I like the lyrics, tune, voice and everything :)

5. First time going OUT of uni for lunch with friends. I mean just a casual lunch...not planned. It's nice :)

6. First time sitting in the front seat of a four wheel drive!! :)

7. Can't think of what else !!! Oh dear...

Tomorrow and Today

2008-12-10T21:14:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow will be a long day at lab, I expect. Probably 8-5. Today my internet line sux so bad. Only now it seems to be working fine, but I don't know how long it will last. Anyway, I performed PCR for the second time. My pipetting was much better and I feel confident that I did not have any serious pipetting-errors this time.

Going to:
a) Run gel for PCR tomorrow morning
b) Isolate genomic DNA tomorrow afternoon
and prepare reagents, perform congo red screening and many other things in between. Gonna be a busy day.

I am quite hungry now. Been having a rather good apetite lately :). Had chicken rice for dinner at about 6:30. Now it's 9:30 and I'm hungry. That's great! Probably gonna have cheese, duck and other goodies my mum brought back from Singapore :)

Haha. Anyway, I don't have much to say now. Just wanna say that Facebook sux! Haha. Can't be anonymous and can't delete my account? That sux!

Quite sleepy now actually... but I'm not sure I'd be able to fall asleep. It's still too early. But I do need to sleep early... cause tomorrow is a long day! Sleep early today, and have a great day tomorrow!!

I have yet to catch Twilight at the cinema. I really want to watch it, ALONE!! Somehow I'm getting a thrill when I think of watching movies alone... not sure why. haha. :D

Oh yes, today I also demonstrated my zero - conversation skills (that i sometimes have) when talking to the master student in my lab. Today, I had such bad communication skills that she had trouble understanding me! Hmm... I need to think before i open my mouth. Definitely. And stop mumbling. And I need to improve my posture. POSTURE!! Sit properly right now :)

Okay there. *Presses the publish post after finishing this sentence*

1st times

2008-12-10T21:09:00.000+08:00

Monday, 8th December 2008: Cut a really huge papaya

Tuesday, 9th December 2008: Cut a defrosted roast duck into segments

Tuesday, 9th December 2008: First time on a skateboard (Still can't balance)

Cause if one day you wake up, and find that your missing me (Meaningfull songs)

2008-12-08T23:05:00.000+08:00

This is the latest song that I've added to my favourites on youtube. I really like the chorus (the tune especially) :

"Cause if one day you wake up,
and find that your missing me,
and your heart starts to wonder,
where on this earth I could be,
Thinking maybe you'd come back here,
to the place that we'd meet,
Then you'd see me waiting for you,
on the corner of the street,
So I'm not movingI'm not moving"

It's quite amazing if someone truly would do this for the person they love. I'm sorry to say, but I don't think I will sacrifice my life waiting for the one to come back (if they come back). Yeah... it sux that I won't. I would prefer if i WOULD want to do something like that. If I were truly loyal to the one...

Song: The man who can't be moved by The Script

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qYJmzYsGhGI

Tomorrow

2008-12-08T22:45:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow I am going back to university to do labwork after taking more than a week off. I kind off dread going back to the lab, which is quite a surprise. I thought I would LOVE lab work, but now I don't. And it's because things are not going as planned. Yes, when I face something difficult, I am quick to dislike (abandon) it. Just like exercise, or maintaining proper posture. Human nature I guess.

Anyway, my project involves isolating a gene coding for an enzyme from a bacteria. But the bacteria i was supposed to work with has been killed (not by me). And I am given a rather poor substitute that probably does *not* have the gene I want. Yeah, I am complaining. Probably I will have to isolate my own bacteria AND the gene after that... but that means that I have to do lots more research, and I *am* a lazy person.

So I will go and "warm-up" tomorrow. I sometimes need a little warm-up period so it's not so overwhelming. I kinda dread going back to that lab... because everyone else seems to be so "focused", knowing exactly what to do. But here i am, not sure of what to do at every stage. And I kind of dread asking for help even when I need it. A mixture of pride and shyness and social anxiety perhaps. It's not that I don't want to change... Yep, it sux.

So, December 9th. Going back to lab. 825 am leaving my house. What am I going to do tomorrow? Prepare some broth, inoculate. Clear up my old bacteria broth in the fridge. Gotta return overdue library books too.

Okay, bye...goodnight :)

Today

2008-12-07T01:01:00.001+08:00

Today was the first day I watched a movie at the cinema alone.

I watched Bolt and really enjoyed it. Maybe it was the freedom of being alone? I was free to be more emotional. I even teared (unbelievable) and laughed out loud(wtf?)!! Haha. Luckily i was sitting alone right at the back, or else people would've thought I was mad. Comparing it to Madagascar 2 which I watched in the cinema with friends, I enjoyed Bolt more. It was really good, and the friendship element in Bolt was much more touching than in Madagascar 2.

And I really enjoyed the Ice Age Trailer too... I must watch that movie too.

I think I may have found a new hobby, but on the other hand, probably not... I'll try and watch Twilight next if possible. A love story huh? Hmm...romantic? Yeah, I should go and watch that!

First post

2008-12-07T00:56:00.000+08:00

Good morning people,

I want this blog to be about things that are meaningful to me. Obviously :)

Well, tonight, I started this blog with the intention of putting meaningful lyrics. But why stop there? We'll see where we go from here.

Okay, it's late. 1:02 am. I should sleep earlier. Maybe I will post something. Maybe.